farahjuliet

2008-01-03T20:08:00.000-08:00

i wont be blogging anymore.
very lazy you know.
i'll continue when i want to.

xoxo

2007-12-31T15:19:00.000-08:00

so this is going to be my last entry for the year =) how time flies.

i made a great bunch of friends this year =) and no doubt i cherish each and everyone of them. and i sure do miss the times we spend our time together.
nanis, fliq, baby, palin, jamie, koda, oza, erin, erykah, nor, anna, hafiz, nat, amir, alyff, hanif, dani, both apit-s, abbas, moon, rusty, andrew, benson, saiful, issyah, ryan, weeman, iffah, elfiana, weenie, skoot, faisal, fazly, zeeroc, faiz etc etc etc.
IM LAZY TO NAME ALL. im sorry.
so basically, all of my myspace friends. the P.O.S.B, WA, hate/mp, prr. omg i miss the times when all of us would hang arnd esplanade at night EVERY saturday at the carpark without fail. kecoh per. haha

PRR

hate/mp

and of course, i wont ever forget my besties in the world.
luby, aida, iqah, hana, alvin, narysal, azri and adi =)
they're like heaven sent. i love you guys. forgive me for my wrongdoings. i'm gonna miss you all truckloads =)

2007 has been a helluva ride for me. ALOT of lessons learnt. i had my first job this year. first ever pay slip =D sorry for the guys i hurt. i belive karma happens. so yea, karma hit me. LOL. woke up, lesson learnt again. humans can never escape from mistakes.

anyway ! i've been going out most of the time !
ohh yea, countdown pah? hahahaha. mariiiiiiiiiiiiiiii *says it in alyff's tone*

2007-12-27T21:52:00.000-08:00

this is going to be so random; basically because im bored. but anyhoos, i've come to a conclusion and think that everyone's a pretender. not pointing fingers at anyone thou. okay, maybe not everyone. but everyone pretends. dont you think so? okay i dont even understand what i'm talking about anyway. forget it. gah, im so ironic.

i seriously, seriously dont feel like going back to school. I WANNA GO TO SOME PRIVATE SCH DADDY. actually when i got my n's results, i was urm, HOPING to fail. honestly. IM SO WEIRD I KNOW. i wanted to fail. maybe like, get 11 points or something? so maybe i can go to some private school like BMC academy and take tourism and hospitality course or whatever shit. DO THEY EVEN HAVE COURSES THERE? i swear i have no ideaaa. and i swear i dont even know if im EVEN interested in tourism and hospitality. sigh, pity me someone.

i have no urm, what you call it? TALENTS. i have zero talents. oh and forget about knowledge. i have zero knowledge. okay, i might get 5 points for my n's. (some can even go WOAH) but hello, it's not like as if i got a three! so i'm not really clever anyway. but to think of it, IM NOT EVEN EDUCATIONALLY QUALIFIED to be in the workforce to start it off. omg why do i sound so pathetic. sigh, i AM pathetic aint i? i swear this is getting nowhere. this, this whole entry i mean.

alright i'm gonna end this whole thing and chat with my friends. and maybe check out new phones on the net. i'm planning to buy a new phone by the way. but im not sure which phone exactly. hmm, i gotta ask for some help.

2007-12-27T18:57:00.000-08:00

I THINK PEOPLE WHO DOSENT BELIVE IN FAIRYTALES ARE CRUEL! evil. bad bad bad. hmph! let's us all save the fairytales before SOMEONE kills them. grr.

so school's starting real soon. i swear i hate to mention that !
going to school tomorrow to check out which class im posted to. i swear i'll kill the teachers if i didnt get posted to the same class as lubna, aida and narysal. how can i possibly live without my friends?

busy busy schedule. i've a pit and a chalet to attend tomorrow. one is at east coast, the other is at costa sands -.-" buying my school bags and stuffs on saturday with lub and aida and i'm treating them to movies. and mondayyyy, countdown. yay (((((:

oh and YAYYYYYY ! I GOT MY PAY ALREADY ^.^

XXXXX

2007-12-24T19:03:00.000-08:00

heyyyy guys (:
yesterday was my bbq pit. i'm lazy to type it all down. so let the pictures do the talking okay !

adi and friends.

iqah & adam

weeman

ryannnnnnn

AMIR ! and omg, he lovesss to say "amir kan sape." yela! farah kan segale galenyer. LOL

HAFIZ AND HANIF

ryan & issyah

RUSSSSSTYYYYYYYYY. and thanks for the bear. its VERY cuddly (:

phantom kepe. haha

BENSOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOON. omg this guy LOVEEEE to smile ok. he smile even when he's daydreaming. hahaha

MY HAIR MY HAIR!

so i received like, 7 BEARS?
i know. thats alot. haha

so i received urmm, 7 bears. and i dont know which bear is from whom. they didnt write their name!
3 dresses .
solvi titus watch from my 2nd brother. i swear its so amazing.

adidas handbag alongside with adidas perfumes, deodorant etcetc from my 1st brother.
aloooooot of chocolates.
nike pencilcase from sadiq.
body shop stuffs from aida. body lotion, lip balm, eye shadow and moisturiser!
2 guess bags from my mum and dad.
and alot others. i cant remember. haha

oh anyway, it rained halfway the party! haha so everyone squuuuezed under one gazebo and ryan and issyah sang some songs while strumming their guitar. they're so sweet. they sang a song especially for me. 'check yes JULIET' by we the kings! haha. we all sang along with them and i swear i had fun despite the heavy rain. and yes, i took a video of them. but guess what? being the very belo girl i am, i didnt switch on the voice thingy. so it was on mute. haha. SO THERE'S NO VOICE.

alot of people came and i didnt get a chance to take pictures with some of them. but whatever it is, i wanna thank each and everyone who came down. i felt touched. verrrry. thanks for making me laugh, thanks for bbq-ing the chickens, sausages, marshmellows etc etc. thanks for making lame jokes. thanks for suprising me. thanks for the presents. and most importantly, thanks for coming down and im grateful to have each and everyone of you as my friends. i love you guys. honestly.

and oh, you guys might be wondering why the hell faisal wasnt in the pictures. guess what? he's suffering from chicken pox. and yes, you got it right. i didnt go out with him on my birthday. i know, HOW SAD RIGHT. but he promised me he'll make it up to me. we're gonna have a very grand belated birthday celebration. well, that's what he said to me thou. YOU BETTER MAKE IT UP TO ME OK DEAR. you better! haha. and yes, KEEP TO YOUR WORDS OK. TWO PRESENTS FROM YOU ! and countless hugs and kisses. mwah :)

obviously at first i was kinda pissed off with him for having chicken pox ON MY BIRTHDAY. but i kinda got over it. so yea, get well soon dear. i wanna visit you soon. i miss you like damn gitu tau. i feel like biting your chicken pox off so you'll be healthy. ewww. haha. i wonder if i wanna even hug you for now! LOL. opps, jgn marah yer.

XOXOXOXOXO

2007-12-20T23:00:00.000-08:00

MY BIRTHDAY IS COMING in about an hour???. and faisal have plans for tomorrow. I LOVE YOU LA SKODENG.
i wonder what will he get for me ^.^
he got for me a VERY BIG BEAR and a heart shaped pillow for me last year thou.

oh my 3rd brother gave me a book called "for one more day" since i passed my n's. i'm a very happy girl (:

XX

2007-12-20T00:39:00.000-08:00

my birthday's coming in less than 24 hours.
and i dont feel happy at all.

cheer me up someone? sigh.

2007-12-18T23:14:00.000-08:00

hey everybody!
okay to make things short, i collected my n's results today and oh boy was i extremely elated. i've got 5 points for my best three subject and i'm able to continue another year in ping yi and take my o's. i was downright shocked cause i suspected i'll get either a 7 or 8. alhamdullilah, i got a 5 (: that's pretty satisfying.

and thanks faisal for meeting me before my results. your good luck kiss really works. XX

my dad bought for me another GUESS handbag cause i passed my n's :D yayyyy. it's $210. and the best thing of all, it's in pink ! thanks dad. i love you. now i've 9 GUESS handbags. mau challenge pa?

this is the one my dad bought for me :

this is the one my mum bought for me for my advance birthday prezzie
i love you ibu!

bad picture quality. was using webcam.

alright so i went out with iqah in the afternoon. we ate at airport and it was fully sponsered by darling faisal skodeng cause he was working. then we went to city plaza to do our hair extentions. i added another 4 more pink extentions ! so now i have a total of 12 pink extentions! iqah did 4 strands of pink extentions too. now we are the pink extentions twins.

like what iqa qouted "hair dyes are so one second ago. hair extentions are the sex"

agree much . haha. heading to escape theme park tomorrow with the gang! love y'all!

2007-12-15T16:08:00.000-08:00

I MADE HOT PINK EXTENTIONSSSSS :D :D :D
IM SO DAMN HAPPY.
hahahaha. went cineleisure with my mum yesterday and made it at some shop there.
i have 8 strands of hot pink extentions now! :D each strand cost 2 bucks. fcking cheap right.
yea yea i know, sch's starting soon and it's a waste but..WHO CARES . 2 bucks for each strand is fcuking cheap. but there's cheaper one thou. at city plaza. 50 cents for each strand. iqah made it there but she said it's not really good.

this is just the side view. 3 strands at my right side. the others is at my back and on the left side of my hair.

yes i know this pic is crappy. I took this in the morning when i just woke up =.=
used webcam.

YAY IM SO HAPPY.

2007-12-10T10:10:00.000-08:00

imhsm
and i dont know why.
:(

2007-12-10T09:29:00.000-08:00

i have nothing to blog about.
results in 8 days time?
hmm..

2007-12-06T13:32:00.000-08:00

my birthday's coming. i'm excited. ive booked a pit so.. my pit will be on the

23rd of December, Sunday.
Pasir Ris Park (VERY near escape theme park)
Pit number 16.
and who's invited? EVERYONE.

haha my actual birthday's on the 21st but all of the pits are booked so, sunday it is. i dont mind actually (: so yea, just add me up at msn or tag me if you wanna come. free food bby (:

2007-12-03T21:20:00.000-08:00

MY MUM BOUGHT FOR ME THE LIMITED EDITION GUESS HANDBAGG! YEAAAAAYYYY!! :D
its freaking 169 bucks. yes, im boasting. why? cannot eh? muahaha.

now i have a total of 8 GUESS handbags. jealous already? :P
AND EXCUSE ME, all original ok. no imitations. I SWEAR. ive proofs !

i have a wonderful life unlike some people who go on tagging people's blog. haha. KIDS. what do you expect?

i'll update real soon! (:

2007-12-03T01:01:00.000-08:00

my nobita/popai/hiro/dongdong (belive me, ive TONS of nicknames for him! hahaha). thanks for everything darling. thanks for being there for me. you helped me alot. i love you. and thanks for the unconditional love. and for that, this entry is specially for you, my dear.

ive known you for almost three years. and i swear upon everything that i love you. ive never been sick/bored of you although after those (almost) three long years. i love you more and more each day. belive me, there's so much more things that ive got to show you. i've so much more things to explore, to go through with you. i've so much more things to learn. i've so much more thing to know about you. i dont know what in particular, but im sure there's something for us to learn about each other everyday; learning to accept one another differences and adapting with it.

no one, i repeat, no one, could ever replace you. faisal, you're the only one. and for that, you'll always have a very special place in my heart.

we are VERY different. but they said difference attracts. maybe that's why you've been so close to me. you're my bestfriend, you're someone who would lend me a listening ear, give me useful advises; you're the one who guided me through the rough patches in my life, you're the one who would hold me tight and tell me everything would be alright. you're the one who would shower me with unconditional love when i feel unloved and you would always remind me to appreciate my life for i have all my loved ones around me. you're the only one who's willing to meet me at 3am in the morning outside my window just to wipe my tears for me. thanks faisal. thanks for telling me i look beautiful even without my make up on. thanks for scoulding me when i did something wrong. without those scouldings i would never realise my mistakes. thanks for sacrificing your time for me. you're everthing that i have ever wished for.

and for that, i love you boyfriend.

your smile enlightens up my day.
your hugs cheers me up.
your kisses are so enchanting that i cherish every second of it.

i know i might not be the most perfect girlfriend in the world. but i will try to be the best i can. and share with you my life. i swear i wont ever regret it.

i know this entry might be a little over the tip but i just feel so emotional right now and i just feel like having my bby faisal by my side now and hug him tight and tell him that he mean the whole world to me.

there's so much more things to type but these words cant explain how much you mean to me.

2007-12-02T11:17:00.000-08:00

oh hello.
i lost my simcard.
so dont call or sms me alright (: it's err, useless? haha. so yea, the only way to contact me is by.. my house number? LOL. i'll buy a new simcard soon. im not sure when. maybe not too soon. i like it when i'm unreachable. that means, peace? hahaha. and yea , no more irritating smses. so yeah.

went out with faisal yesterday. thanks for the day bby. i love you.

2007-12-01T08:02:00.000-08:00

pictures from weeeks and weeeeks ago.
not much. cause faisal refused to become my cawhoring partner. hmph!

darling baby drew this for his art final piece
nice right? (:

OMG I FEEL LIKE PINCHING HIS CHEEKS
tembam! comel <3
hehehe

im faaaahking tired. blob! (what the hell?!) hahaha. been working for like, 9 to 12 hours everyday? there's shortage of staffs.but they are not doing anything about it. when someone applied for the job, managers will throw their application form away or either use it as a recycled paper. i know, how ironic.

got my pay. bought a very cute little red dress after work today with lubna. ITS BEEN 3 WEEKS SINCE I LAST SAW HER OMG.

im tired.
going out with faisal tomorrow.
i'm sorry baby i cant send you to work today.
i miss you. and i love you even more.

oh btw happy december to everyone ^_^
especially to me of course.
my birthday's in 20 days time.

2007-11-29T01:54:00.000-08:00

it's been awhile since i update.
anyway, GOOD NEWS GOOD NEWS !
last two days i received a letter from edusave thingy something something. i will be receiving a certificate along with some cash for achieving excellent results (THEY DID MENTIONED THE 'EXCELLENT RESULTS' part ok!) and for achieving the top 10% of students in my level. zomg. yayy ! the last time i received something like this was...4 years back? all the hours spend preparing for my prelims was worth it! it paid off (: yayy. haha. i`ll receive the award next year. 6th January 2008 at kaki bukit c.c. i think. yayy i cant wait. hahaha
and yea i know it's not necessary to post abt this up here but, it dosent hurt if i boast once in a while right? muahahaha.

im working mon - fri this week. like zomg right. i know.
its been awhile since i last went out with my friends :( im sad. im really am.
i miss alvin lubna iqah aida hana naz adi and everyone else.

faisal too of course.
my baby boy (:
although you really get on my nerves sometimes ( and i feel like killing you ) , youre still the number one in my heart and please belive me when i say that. no other guys could replace you. yea, and i love you. alot. xoxo.

PICTURES UP IN THE NEXT POST !

2007-11-25T16:34:00.000-08:00

i am so bored.
im home alone now.
something's been stucked in my mind for a long looong time..

PAYDAY'S COMING SOOOOOOOOOOOOOON.
I'm not sure when but it might be in 3 / 4 / 5 days time and that means..
RETAIL THERAPY
and dont worry. i've already listed out what im buying so yea. YAYYY
was blogshop-hopping just now and yea, i might buy this pretty pretty pretty bucket tote ! faisal and myself will be buying the same pair of pink jeans! and pink tops too. i forced him to. hahaha. no, actually i told him to buy yellow jeans together but he suggested pink so yea, pink it is :D luby and myself will get whole new dresses-es-es-es and the same pair of bucket tote ^.^ only of different colour. hehe. i saw this really pretty little red dress at orchard. i cant wait i cant wait i cant wait ! but im still wondering how much my pay will be. I JUST HOPE THOSE NUMBERS WONT BE DISSAPOINTING. and yes, im gonna get that Guess watch no matter what. its fcking pretty i can die. and its damn shiny i could even go blind. and then and then and then christmas coming soon so that means, YEAR END SALE. and then and then and then i will spend like hell. and i`ll be a very happy girl :D

sorry, excuse me for this post.
just so excited.
my.first.ever.pay.in.my.whole.life.
.
.
.
except when i was young when i got paid by cleaning the house :D

2007-11-25T12:25:00.000-08:00

happy sunday everyone (:
went out with dear faisal yesterday. he's my popai <3 hahahaha. it's an inside joke. and he's my nobita :D we watched DORAEMON THE MOVIE at cathay cineleisure. yes, trust me, we've watched almost all of the movies available until we have no more interesting movies to watch. so yea, DORAEMON IT IS. and yea, it was free :D but i still havent watch my BRATS THE MOVIE! i HAVE to catch it man.

ate at far east. walked around and we have no other plans. so faisal decided to watch another movie at THE CATHAY at dhobby ghaut. so we walked from far east to dhobby ghaut. THAT REALLY BURNT OFF THE CARBS. we walked like siamese twins from one end to another. HAHA. our head was "joined" and my arms was at his hip and his arm was around my neck. we walked like idiots. HAHAHA. i had fun. and suddenly everything felt so perfect; just by being next to you (: i love you my popai <3

so we watched FRED CLAUS. it was mediocore. yep. took bus 14 home and yeaa reached home exactly at midnight. he send me home of course.

my darling baby, i had so much fun with you (:

AND LUBYYYYYYYY, lets go out soon. i miss you mann.
iqah, hana, aida, and everyone else, lets go out (:

i love the people arnd me <3

2007-11-20T03:27:00.000-08:00

im such a...
fickle minded idiot.
IN EVERYTHING.
i made a mess.
and now there's no turning back.
actually, there is. but im just finding an easier way. which is, well, imposibble? but i'm still trying thou.
hmmm.

2007-11-18T15:37:00.000-08:00

i'm sick ! really :(
anyway, was forced to work yesterday cause there was shortage of staffs. damn. been really really worned out lately. but faisal made my day thou (: he picked me up from work. had dinner at far east plaza and then watched movie (: we watched the game plan ! got one ticket for free. the advantages of working at cathay ! hahahaha. so yea, i love that movie. damn sweet (: there was a part when the little girl asked her father "what was the best thing that has ever happen in your life?" . so i asked faisal the same thing. and he gave me ridiculous answers. i was like, what the fooook? haha. but on the way home in the bus, faisal sms-ed me something really really sweet. (yes, he sms-ed me even though he's directly beside me.)

"finding the stardust for your birthday would be the best thing in my life. cause seeing you smile makes the world a perfect place to be"

and i hugged him straight away! hahahaha (:
well, ive been engrossed in star-dust since the day i watched the movie stardust with faisal. i told faisal i want stardust for my birthday and he promised me he would find it for me no matter what ^.^ awww, you make me love you more and more each and everyday.

oh guess what?
i'll be working on monday till friday this coming week.
0.0

2007-11-16T03:39:00.000-08:00

faisal's super sweet today.

2007-11-15T14:38:00.000-08:00

SOS.
im fcking bored. but im working later though. 5pm - 10pm. oh my gudddd.
anyway, met my sunshine yesterday (: i miss you bby. we watched stardust at the cathay at dhoby ghaut. i love that movie okay ! downright sweet. faisal, i want stardust also :D

i wanna go lime sonic bang this saturday but faisal told me to help out with his art [although ive zero knowledge in art] . so yea, i'll be missing it again this year :( but its okay. gonna help faisal instead :D
faisal's been really busy with his art assignments and such. sometimes i feel like burning down his sch, lasalle, for taking my boyfriend away. damn you lasalle. DAMN YOU MANNNN.

anyhoos, iqah and alvin got the job (: yayyyyy. hahaha. damndamndamn 15 more days to pay day !

lub's down with chicken pox! 0.0
you better recover fast aite biatch? i want a sleepover soon (:

2007-11-13T00:17:00.000-08:00

these pictures are sooo old.

happy anniversary sunshine! (:
i love you. alot. i swear.
you're so awesome that no one could ever replace you.
*hugs , kisses, and cuddles*
you're a sweetheart and you will always be one (:

2007-11-11T22:30:00.000-08:00

omg.
everyone have been bombing me with questions at msn asking me where i'm working at. hahaha. alright alright. i'm working at cathay cineleisure (cineplex) huneys (: at the movie box office. there, i said it. HAPPY ? now, who's gonna be the next one to apply at my workplace? hahahaha

anyway today was tiring. went to johore with parents and luby by my dad's carrr. so yah. picturessss..

that's the mp4 my mumsie bought for me! (:
it's for an advance birthday gift.
YES, MY BIRTHDAY IS NEXT MONTH. SAVE UP YOUR MONEY PEOPLE !
I WANT GOOD STUFFS YO !
*HINT HINT*
hahahahahahahaha
JOKINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG.

my mum. cute kan. interested? HAHAHAHA

i noticed all my pictures are side-view =.=''

anywayyyy, bought quite a number of stuffs. not alot though cause......msia fashion trend is boring? HAHAHAHA okay sorry if i offended anyone. anyway, bought one purple dress, a red top (more like a spag), big shades, eyelashes perming machine thingy and a juicy couture purse. luby and i bought the same juicy couture purse ^.^
nothing caught my eye there. and yea, i swear we spend around 4 hours walking aimlessly around city square to find a nice and decent top but i only manage to find two. yes, ITS THAT BAD.

i dont know what time i reach home. but anyway, faisal ending work in 5 mins time. eh, i miss u, u tau tak? tak tau kan? yela mane u tau. but now u dah tau kan? kay best.
i loveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee uuuu.
kay farah mepek.

im working 6 hours tomorrow!
OH MY GUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUUD.

2007-11-10T13:57:00.000-08:00

have you ever come to a point where you feel asoblutely uneasy but you have NO idea what you're uneasy about? or have you ever feel like theres something's wrong but you have NO idea what it is. or have you ever sense that something bad is gonna happen but you dont know when, what, how, where, or even who. ya know that feeling suck. chet! my heart's beating fast BUT I DONT KNOW WHY. funny isnt it? i'm scared. but i dont know at what. tskkkkkkkkkkkkkkk.

forget about it.

anyways, fetched faisal from work yesterday. it was already 6.30pm when i walked out from my house so i knew i'd be late if i take the bus cause he'll end work arnd 7pm. took a cab to airport and fcuk, the fare's 11 bucks. 11 BUCKS FOR A TAXI FARE FROM BEDOK TO AIRPORT. how ironic is that?

he treated me to fish & co. thanks :D :D :D :D
it was for our advance anni i think? hahahahahaha
we were damn bloated halfway through the main course. by dessert i almost felt like vomitting. but we (no, more like ME) finished it up though.
watched beeeeeee movie after that. reached home 11plus.

today's saturday and i'm not going out.
going to johore tomorrow and hopefully lubna could come along so we could (insert word here) HAHAHAHAHAHAHA. fourth floor, city square. you know , i know. LOL
im bored. i wanna work =X

oh and surprise surprise,
i lost 3 kg since i started working !
YES, 3 FCKING KG.
yesssaaa.
i guess i'm too busy at work till i forget about my lunch time. bah!

everyone's applying at my workplace. HAHAHA.
alvin...iqah...ashraf...hakim....dani.....
yayyyy.

lovelove!

2007-11-09T12:12:00.000-08:00

okay a proper update now (:

i've been really busy. what's new? chet ! tagboard's a bore. i wanna delete it soon. maybe.
yesterday work was =O
i went for 10 mins break when i deserve an hour break cause i worked for 10 hours. ya i know, what the hell right? but it's okay. yesterday was double pay (: public holiday baby.

anyway on wednesday (two days back), alvin, iqah and azri picked me up from work. AWWWWWW. alvin and iqah applied at my workplace though (: i asked them to cause im working there alone and i feel sooo lonely. okay not really since i made a great bunch of friends at work (: mel, jeremy, joyce, kidd, si ling, ben and others.
iqah, alvin and azri said my job is coolio shiat ! i know . i know! hahahaha. plus, it's at orchard. how fcking cool is tt? i can eat fried mars bars like, EVERYTIME.

so yaaah, i ended work around urmm, 6plus? so we went to eat at far east plaza. i ate hotplate beef. iqah wanted to go for extentions and im planning to have extensions too (: NOT really a major hair extention thou. NOT those extentions that makes your hair longer. i just want ashy-blonde HIGLIGHT EXTENTION on my hair. like just 6 streaks maybe? it's fucking cheap. cheaper than going for a highlight. highlight can cost you up to 50 bucks whereas when you do extentions, each strand only cost me 2 bucks. FCKING CHEAP RIGHT. plus, i can remove it anytime i like. i might wanna do it tomorrow with lubna. i don't know. i'm not sure thou.

alright so alvin went for a piercing. 2nd hole on his left ear. sachok la. HAHAHA. we walked around orchard at night. reached home around 11pm. gyea i was dead tired.
picturesss..
dont mind the sloppy face huh. I WAS FROM WORK OK.

he looks so tough dosent he?
THATS A COMPLIMENT ALVIN.
oi, wear your blue soccer tshirt! hahaha. okay, inside joke.

faisal's finishing work at 7pm today ! picking him up from work today ! (:
wheeeee

2007-11-07T16:06:00.000-08:00

just one picture for the meanwhile. check out my hair dudes. not the face. peace ! (:

2007-11-04T22:33:00.000-08:00

okay so i've been really busy !
plus, very tired.
been working for 3 days straight. i'm not sure weather i'm having fun at work or not but, at least its better than rotting at home ! but hey, work's pretty fun actually ! (:
so my life has pretty much been revolving around faisal, work, computer,friends anddd....sleep?
so its like, wake up, work, talk to faisal on the phone, sleep, wake up, work, talk to faisal on the phone, sleep and yea, the cycle continues.

there are even times when i accidentally slept on the phone while talking to faisal. sorry honey
:( i'm really really tired.

but but but, on a brighter noteeeeee, IM NOT WORKING TOMORROW ! off day baby. meeting my loveydoveyhunnybunny boyfie tomorrow. let's watch movie shall we? i love you to bits and pieces and atoms and molecules and omg-im-crapping-too-much.

wondering where i'm working at?
CANT TELL YOU. hahahaha. okay you guys will know sooner or later. but yeaaaaa. it's somewhere in orchard (:
my seniors and managers are really really really very friendly and cheerful. like, VERY !
just now in the morning when i entered the office, i was really really down cause i was sleepy (slept only for around 3hours cause i talked to faisal on the phone the whole midnight till morning) and i havent even eat my breakfast ! (a hungry farah is an angry farah). so everyone looked at me and shouted GOOD MORNINGGGG all at the same time! i was shocked but it made my day =]

faisal and my friends have been really supportive thou. treating luby to seoul garden with my first pay ! and retail therapy for myself (:

okay so,
we're (luby and myself) opening our blogshop again. it's a little dead now so gyeaaa. we'll start it again once i post the pictures of the tops & bottoms we'll be selling. dont worry, trust us in fashion bby! (:

faisal's finishing work in 30 minutes ! yayyy (:
lovelovelovelove youuuuuuu

2007-10-31T20:51:00.000-07:00

i got a job.
and all of you will be envious of me.
because my job is so cool & fun
YAYYY :)

2007-10-31T00:18:00.000-07:00

asian beats pictures ! (:
28/10

for some unknown reasons, my butt looks big here.

ignore my face, please.

gosh, i love this guy (:

so updates abt today ! (:
erm, yesterday i mean. since it's already 12.23am now.

met luby ! its been weeks since i met her. visited haidar at her house cause she went for an operation few days back. went town soon after with luby and bugis at night. bought two dresses ! okay they're not really dresses actually. it's like a tunic (: nicee.
oh and it was alread 9pm and we wanted to head back home. we waited for the taxi and guess what? no taxi was available ! we waited for 1 hour for a taxi but we gave up at last ! we were so fcking bored while waiting for a taxi to actually pick us up till we made a really stupid song ! "we neeeed a taxiiii in our lifeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee" hahaha okay that was an inside joke. we also think of ways to SEDUCE apek taxi. hahaha. but we failed. haha. in the end we took the train. that was our last resort. reached home at 11pm. =.=''

okay gotta go !
really busy in msn =]

2007-10-27T10:02:00.000-07:00

i cant wait for tomorrow bby ! (:

and for a record, i woke up at 8am today for the first time in around 3 weeks!
i mean, i'll wake up around 2pm everyday in average.
initial plan was to wake up early in the morning and go for a jog arnd the neighbourhood (soo not me i know) to get some fresh air but it rained and i cant get back to sleep !
bahhhh.

to you,
thanks for making my day honey.
good morning to you too my sunshine (:

oh and gyea, of course the tattoo isnt real darling ! hahahahaha.
he drew it using marker (:
i'll slit him to death if he ever intend to get any tattoo!
i mean, FOR REAL ! okay maybe i'll just strangle him. slitting him sounds brutal dosent it?
hahaha.

i love you(:
i hope everything will turn out smoothly for us this time round (:

i have no idea why i kept on singing complicated by avril lavinge this days !

2007-10-24T15:10:00.000-07:00

i'm bored like fcuk.
someone's phone fell into the toilet bowl. teeheehee.
so gyea, went out yesterday with faisal. fetched him from school for the first time ever . i was shocked when he showed me his arm.
SOMEONE made a tatoo of my name at his arm!
he was soo adorable. he was like "see ! i made a tattoo for you !"

i swear this is like the typical mat-ish pose.

so gyea, bought a top at bugis street for sunday ! faisal's band, fallen july, is having a competition this coming sunday at downtown east. all the best. had dinner at mcdonald's and then headed to cathay cineleisure and watched resident evil ! it's NC16. MY FIRST NC16 MOVIE OK!!! i'm so proud . haha. no doubt the movie's downright gruesome and violent. so yeaaa

im boredimboredimbored. im starting to love vintage tees ! okay i swear its effing rare to see me wearing tees cause honestly tee's are not my thing. but omg im starting to love them so gyea. you should too luby ! hahaha.

and so i quit my job ! HAHAHA. dont ask me why or i'm gonna kill you for sure.
hahaha okay basically because the job sucks. MUAHAHA. all job sucks to be exact.

i ate carrot cake two days in a row. my mum's carrot cake is tha best.

went out jalan raya-ing with the schoolmates two days back and it's effing fun (:

im using my gray contact lense and i know my eyes looks scary.

i wanna post the group pics with the girls but my face sucks so yah. hahaha. too bad.

haha go view this ! i was walking stupidly with my fan and then ashraf suddenly sang that old malay song! so we ended up taking this stupid vid ! haha

now i have no idea what to type next.
IT'S JUST 3PM AND I'M FCUKING BORED ALREADY !
okay , i need a job to fill up my time. i want an exciting job. no, i dont want a job at escape theme park. i dont wanna become dark. suggestions?
but to think of it, i DONT need a job. my expenses are all fully supported by my parents so gyeee. BUT STILL, i WANT a job cause i'm fcuking bored at home.
make any sense?

oh and suprise supriseee.
ive almost 4000 emails unread. yea, 4000. not 400 or 40. but 4000. im lazy to delete them. junkmails ! send me exciting emails anyone ! update your blog ! i need something to read. storybooks sucks. i only read princess diaries series^.^

i want munchy donut. i want those with chocolate toppings. SINFULLLLLLLLL.

i wanna go wild wild wet! hahaa. omg omg im so bored.

gahhhh.

2007-10-18T02:40:00.000-07:00

been busy. VERY busy.
just a few picture to fill up this page.....

i know i look undeniably weird at the left picture.
haha. i took that when it was already around 10pm. went out with p.o.s.b and W.A
so gyea. was a little tired. no, ALOT tired.

1st day of raya (:
it was green day ! haha
oh gyea, thats me with my sister in law; kak aesya.
she's not fat or bloated. she's pregnant, stupid. haha!
im gonna have a niece soon on december! finally a girl !

lovelove!

2007-10-12T23:14:00.000-07:00

selamat hari raya to all my lovely friends and foes.
may you have a lovely and an enjoyable day on this joyous occasion. forgive me for all my wrong doings and forgive me if i have ever hurt any of you in any way. lets throw away the grudges honeys. dah tak puase tu, makan tu relax la sikit (: to those who's close to me, you're utmost welcome to come my house gyea. green packets available (: haha! call in advance alright. to those who's not close to me, lu boleh relax sudah. HAHAHA. joking (: youre welcome to come too darlings. once again, selamat hari raya maaf zahir dan batin ok.

handphone's inbox was boomed with hari raya greetings from unexpected people. thanks honeys. ramadhan's over. that means, no more waking up early in the morning for sahur. yayy (:

much love,
juliet

2007-10-10T17:33:00.000-07:00

AWESOME NEWS (:
i've a job !
isnt it like downright suprising?
i've a job i've a job !
muahahaha. and i'm working at TOA PAYOH. gyeah, that's like 14 stops away from bedok. god damn far huh? it's okay. at least apit, oza and fliq's working there. Baby might work there too ! (:
i'm starting on monday. I'll be working on monday to thursday. I'm not sure about sunday thou ! I might wanna work on that day too (: We'll see. The manager is really really nice. phew.

Meeting the girls tomorrow at city hall's underground.
berdansa kepe?
haha!

anyway yesterday met nat with luby ! met andrew and apit too. and how was fried mars bars , nat? haha. awesome gyea? i know ^.^

lovelove!

IMYSMD!

2007-10-08T13:13:00.000-07:00

finally i've the time to update ! (:
anyway, today's my daddy's birthday so HAPPY BIRTHDAY AYAH ! FARAH LOVE YOU ALOT (although you really get into my nerves sometimes). YOU'RE THE BESTEST FATHER EVER !
baby, n's over ! that's like a load off my shoulders, mind you. haha ! 2 and a half months of break :D :D :D :D

let's see what ive done for these past few days huh..
- broke fast with the hi5 gang on friday. hanged around orchard
- sleptover at luby's house on friday night
- dyed my hair
- rebonded my hair
- went out with posb & wa. slacked at esplanade with hate/mp and p.r.r and some others
- slept at 5am. woke up at 3pm.
- cleaned my room for hari raya.
- slept. woke up just in time to break-fast.
- sleep.
- woke up at 12 midnight.

well you get the drift huh. IM ENJOYING MY HOLIDAYS BABY.
picturesssssssss.

i was chatting with nat the other day and suddenly he changed his display picture. and i was like, "nat ! i have a picture quite similar to yours !"
hahaha, yayy, we have the same pose. unintendedly (:

nat (pronounced as 'net') is from thailand and he's coming singapore todayyy only for 2 days (: see ya soon! LOL .
ohoh and again , we have the same hair colour ! unintendedly again !

and somebody finally admit that i'm classier than him.

lovelove!
p/s i think i wanna sleep again =.=''
pp/s i'm not the typical girl who'll use a big clip at the side of the fringe, boy. dont expect me to be what you want me to be. i'll be who i want to be.

2007-10-03T23:35:00.000-07:00

one paper left.
Just ONE paper left.
FNN FNN FNN FNN FNN.
and i'm free.
trust me, i'm going to shout, laugh, bark, meow, crawl, jump, pole-dance on friday.
okay, i was just joking about that.
but omg hell yea JUST ONE PAPER LEFT !
but for now let me suffer for just two days more and get all the facts stucked in my head. brain, i mean.

lovelove!
tight warm cuddles & sexy kisses,
the juliet with no romeo.
[man made this quote for me. adorable huh ! haha]

2007-09-29T19:28:00.000-07:00

[p/s theres a video below. you might wanna press 'play' and 'pause' to let it load first for convinience sake.]

i'm listening to i'm sorry by 1st ladi ! omg such an old old song. brings back thousands of memories :)
anyways, i've loads of picturess! yea i know it's been eons since i post us pictures ! haha. so yesterday was the last day of school for some of the 4na's since some intends to go ite but i've promised everyone i'll come back next year for my 5th year to take my o's soo gyeah. took pictures for memories sake (: had class photo on thursday ! yayy we're gonna appear on the graduating classes in the year book ! LOL. i brought my camera on friday to camwhore ! (:

BIO STUDENTSSSSSSS ! (:
[without lubna. she didnt came to school! :( ]

adi, khaalis, ashaf.
i'm gonna miss suradi for sure ! (the one with the hat on )
we've been classmates for 7 years in a row !
yes, not schoolmates. but CLASSMATES for SEVEN fcuking years !
i have no clue how we went to the same class for the straight seven years since primary three ! haha. cool isnt it? i watch him grow, he watch me grow. from kids to teens. i will definately miss fighting with him thou since he intends to go ite next year. he's a friend that i'll definately cherish (:

I LOVE AIDA! (:

THE HI-5 CLAN.
[narysal, azri, aida, luby and myself ! (: ]

narysal as tim.

azri as nathan.

luby as charlie

aida as kellie
& me as kathleen !
yayyy (:

we were trying to imitate how most mats in friendster pose when they take pictures ! LOL

favourite malay teacher ! (:

khaalis rhino
i gave him that rhino nickname since two years ago and he's still using it ! yayy.

ash

omg this is tha sec 1 (or 2?) boy that all of us hate/adore ! we dont know which ! we just love to make fun of him cause...he's disgusting? haha ! dont tell him that ! shhhh :D

stop bullying him khaalis !

414;2007
didnt get to take pictures with 3/4 of the class thou since we went to different lessons most of the time.

alright i'm out !
gonna study bio now (:
toodles.

p/s i know there's something wrong with the video i posted few days back (it cant be played or smth) so i uploaded it using imeem now. so gyea, the vid's working now (:

a video made by the exbf. thanks (:
i cried while watching it the other day.

ihtily

2007-09-26T22:59:00.000-07:00

and then there's time you look at me,
as though i'm all that you could see..

2007-09-24T21:18:00.000-07:00

You can only push a girl away for so long until she walks out of your life on her own. So becareful and make sure this is what you want because once she turns around she isn't coming back.

2007-09-23T22:07:00.000-07:00

hello darlings.
went out yesterday with the usual saturdays people (:
broke-fast with the P.O.S.B and P.R.R yesterday at far east. there was more than 20 of us altogether. i swear they were making loads of noise. haha. so headed to esplanade at night as usual. slacked at the carpark and hate/mp came soon after (: all of us shared ghost stories ! abbas' experience with *ehemehem* was the most scariest of all !
posb and prr headed to clark quey after that. BUT we decided to move to uob building soon after at raffles place cause some people was alrd at clark quey (: slacked and .. slacked. talked nonsense.
took pictures but i aint gonna post it up cause.. my face damn blur la! hahaha.

was looking through my photobucket. saw this and decided to post it up ^.^
W.A

P.O.S.B

P.R.R

Hate/mp

honeys, thanks for making my saturdays a happy one (:

so today, sunday.
brother woke me up at ten. got ready and went to the malaysia/singapore railway station with my family to send one of my relatives back home. so then parents and sis-in-law went parkway parade with the car. didnt wanna go parkway so i followed my brother with his wife to geylang with his car. he wanted to find this particular banana but it was a failed attempt. bought ben & jerry's and some other stuffs at paya lebar's ntuc then headed back home. didnt study. didnt use the comp. didnt watch tv. I SLEPT THE WHOLE TIME ! hahaha. woke up just in time for break-fast. so yeah, did nothing much after that.

alright toodles.

"STOP ! kau mencuri hatiku, hatikuuuuu"
haaha ! omg girls, u got me addicted to this dandut song ! haha.

coffee withhhh..... *chuckles and blushes*

2007-09-21T13:07:00.000-07:00

yayy (:
so dad has got a new car and it's black in colour. prettaye nice (:
& it's final. i'm rebonding my hair ! yayy. no more doubts this time. but ive yet to think of a colour to dye my hair. LOL.

i'm improving in maths. finally my (cute) maths teacher praised me for my achievements. I got a b3 in maths. I'm not proud of it neither am i dissapointed about it. I'll try to achieve higher for n's.

Visited my granddad on wednesday. It really hurts to see him in that condition. But i know he's strong. I love you. Please get well soon :(

I'm out from school in less than 2 weeks time. yayy, i dont have to see anymore faggots from school ! hahaha. And i wanna work. Any job recommendations?

Alright, i'm off ! i've piles of worksheets and books waiting for me ^.^
lovelove !

p/s batman & catwoman are stupid names. LOL.
pp/s i dont need the tagboard when i have a MSN account. oooh honey, i know youre lacking of love from people around you. add me up in MSN and maybe i'm able to make you feel better?
schizophrenic_juliet@hotmail.com
dont hesistate. just add. i don't bite. maybe i'll just chew you up. JOKING !

toodles.

2007-09-18T20:28:00.000-07:00

tok ayah,
get well soon. please. dont leave us. dont leave me. dont leave everyone around you. we love you dearly. please be strong. i'll be here to give you moral support. i'll give you my best. just dont leave me. i might not be there for you now. i might not be there for you always. but bare in mind that i truly care for you. i love you alot deep down and you have a special place in my heart; in our hearts.

im aware that everyone who's alive will leave the world forever one day. and i dont want that day to come anytime soon. i dont. we dont. i still have alot to share with you, dear grandfather. i still need to feel the gentle touch of your soft fragile hands against mine. i still want to spend quality time with you doing nothing together. i just want to feel the assurance that youre alright once again.

i miss the times when i was still a small little girl and you were still strong as ever. i'll spend the night sleeping at your house and you'll toast my favourite bread early in the morning even before i wake up; just to prepare the breakfast beforehand. you know my favourite breakfast set, even without me telling it to you. toasted bread with a spread of butter and a sprinkle of sugar, complete with cup of hot milo with extra milk added to it. you know it yourself, you're the greatest grandfather anyone could ever have.

i miss the times when you'll take my picture secretly and show it to me at the end of the night. i always hated you for doing that because my face would turn out funny in the picture. i would always ignore you as a result. but your humourous act is what makes you special.

i do aware that i wasnt as close to you now as before. i'm sorry. i have been too engrossed in my life that i forgot about you. i know, im selfish, i'm self centered. im sorry grandad. i should have been there for you everyday, calling you up just to hear your voice. i'm such a bad grand-daughter. forgive me.

now that the time you're leaving us forever is coming pretty soon, i just want to thank you for everything. thanks for guiding me through my early years. thanks for taking care of me. thanks for entertaining my endless whinings. i know i was such a brat when i was little. thanks for buying evrything that i wished for. thanks for scoulding me when i did something wrong. without those scouldings, i wouldnt realise my mistakes up till now.
however, please forgive me for my wrong doings towards you. i know you have alot of flowers and plants outside your house. you have been growing them for many many years. you might not know this but, please forgive me because i'll never fail to pluck a handful of flowers and leaves everytime i come to your house. they're just so tempting and beautiful, just like you granddad.

thanks for noticing my interest towards roses and other flowers. thanks for giving me a pot of ur own roses for me to put it outside my house. thanks for beliving in me that i could take good care of the pot of plant. but please forgive me once again because i didnt manage to take good care of it. the plants died in 3 weeks. i just dont have the skill like you to handle those plants.
for that, youre a superhero.
and you'll always be one..

i love you. i do .

if i could have one wish now, i would wish for your fast recovery and for you to be strong as ever. i promise i'll take good care of you. i promise i wont neglet you no more. i promise i wont pluck anymore of your roses outside your house. i promise that i'll make for you your breakfast. it's my turn now granddad. i know you love toasted bread dipped in coffee. i promise i'll make for you that everyday.
but i know it's just too late to turn back time.
sigh, you know what granddad? you're my favourite granddad. i know i didnt tell you that before. i was shy. for no reason. trust me. i'm not saying this just to make you happy. it comes from the bottom of my heart. you're just so special to me.

i've lost someone special few months ago and im certainly not ready to part with another man of my life.

get well soon.

2007-09-16T12:45:00.000-07:00

you know what?

shit happens. everytime. most of the time. on me.

i'm trying my best not to use vulgar here to vent my anger. and i swear you dont know how hard it is. it seems that i often find out the truth about (almost) everyone in a short period of time (the wonders of technology) and no doubt it can be so hurtful at times. But maybe it might be a hint for me to take another step to save my sorry ass from getting into another whole new trauma.

Guess what?

nmhcifothlag.

figure that out yourself.

2007-09-15T12:21:00.000-07:00

ive been blogging regularly.
isnt that goooood? haha. okay so yea, yesterday was aida's birthday celebration. happy 16th birthday once again bestie. you know i love you righttttt *grins*
break-fast at mak's place with iqah, luby and aida. and mak's place isnt my mum's place. mak's place is a shop. gyeah (: hahaha. and i soo love the food there eh.

my stomach was seriously bloated. we searched for CLEAN toilets after that. trust me, we had a serious hard time. haha. first we went to all the floors of joo chiat complex to check the toilets out because we desperately need the toilet but we were disgusted even before we entered the toilet. so we went as far as tanjong katong complex. and finally, a semi-clean toilet at the 2nd floor. haha. we took like what, an hour to search for a clean toilet. the length we would go for beauty . hahahaha !

the birthday girrrrlll (:

my shorty-oty bestie.

walked around geylang after that but apparently there wasnt much people there. hello, 2nd day of ramadhan. i was quite dissapointed thou. I WANT THE CROWDS MAN. its funny how i want the crowds when there isnt any but i hate the crowds when there is. pfft.
so gyeah, ayus came and iqah left with him after that. luby, aida and myself bought dengdeng ! went sg post at paya lebar and ate our oily oily dengdeng. took the bus home and reached home close to 11pm (:

2007-09-14T16:26:00.000-07:00

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY MY DARLING BESTIE, HAIDARNURWANI ! (:

may all your wishes and wildest dreams come true !

besties for 4 years and still counting (:

iloveyou!

alright i better get ready now.

breaking-fast with iqah,lub and of course the birthday girl !

omg im craving for dengdeng.

toodles!

2007-09-12T22:37:00.000-07:00

luby & myself bought two big tubs of ben & jerry's today ! thats like $23 gone down the drain. haha. but it's okay ^.^ once in awhile, nothing wrong about that roight? haha. bought cookie dough and new york chocolate fudge something like that. oh gyeahs some pictures. "Feast" your eyes gyeah? haha.

me. duh.

lubyyyyy.

my nephew !
naim (:
haha he look damn adorable dosent he? haha. i wore for him my abercrombie & fitch jacket.

2007-09-12T00:15:00.000-07:00

im happy ! for some reason. of course lah ! haha.
it might be something small but at least i'm happy. and it's been a long time since i was happy so this is something to appreciate thanks to ... hahahaha. you think? im smilling! haha. let's play guessing game ! haha.

i hate my geog teacher ! i hate i hate i hate ! FCUK YOU GLEN/GLYN OR HOWEVER TO SPELL YOUR NAME LA. i hope you rot in hell. and i know i mentioned this before sometime ago but your hairstyle is really disturbing. wth la its not like as if i did badly for your papers right. to think of it, i did pretty well for my prelims so fcuk you man. trust me, im gonna get an A for geog and prove you wrong so you will shut your piehole, for once. mark my words, idiot.

[p/s im still smilling]

gonna eat the wholetub of ben and jerry's tomorrow. last day before fasting ! its fattening but who cares ! who can resists ben & jerry's ? you tell me.

[p/s im still smilling.]

something happened in the bus otw home from east point just now ! haha sigh sigh, *insertwordhere* smells good yaw. really, really good. i missed my stop. but it was on purpose ! haha. i'm willing to do anything just to *insertmanymanywordshere* hahahaha ! bump again soon?

[p/s im still smilling]

- Narysal.. i hate you... says:
you still blogging ehhh?

(R) farah juliet (R) •»¦ i'm looking like class and you're looking like trash ¦«• says:
gyeah

- Narysal.. i hate you... says:
hahaha

- Narysal.. i hate you... says:
remember write about narysal aka narnar black sheep havent got any wool.

(R) farah juliet (R) •»¦ i'm looking like class and you're looking like trash ¦«• says:
hahaha okok!

- Narysal.. i hate you... says:
yayyyyyyy.

- Narysal.. i hate you... says:
aww gyeahh

nArYSaL iShH a GayYyfAgGg.

muahaha, joking. narysal is a . . . . iron chef ! oh yeaaa lets make cake tomorrow together shall we? yayy ! we're baking cakes tomorrow !
send me the pictures we took in class la ! haha.
oh oh oh, haha, azri calls me pim and i call him ploy ! LOL. for no reason. okay dah.

[p/s im still smilling]

someone's caring. yayy. at least someone cares (: i know it's a small act but still.....thanks (: you made my day. nah, you made my WEEK. haha.

[p/s still smilling widely]

yayy school starts late tomorrow ! no, today. since its alrd 12.15am now. hahaha.

2007-09-10T21:38:00.000-07:00

so, you think it's better off this way?

i'm lazy to type. serious shiat. but i just feel like blogging so, hello fellow homosapiens. blah.
ben and jerry's icecream makes me happy. just had a big tub of it earlier on with luby.

so yeah, i'm currently hating the state i'm in now. no, i'm not sick or anything. just confused. and yea, torn. no doubt bout that. shit happens so, yea. maybe i just have to live with that fact that things dont usually go the way u want it to be although how hard you tried or sacrificed. i mean, if it wasnt meant to be, then it isnt. and maybe i should stop questioning huh? but belive me, i tried. so hard. but i guess it wasnt enough to change how things are now.

i can't wait to go geylang (hari raya celebration purposes, idiot).
dengdeng anyone?

new hairstyle in a month's time.
oh jyeah hun, 3 MORE WEEKS AND IM OUT FROM SCHOOL !
i can endure. i can endure.
study study study. mug mug mug.
3 weeks left for the other papers.
be a geek now and study.
three weeks left and im out to town everyday ! haha macam paham.

i wanna work after n's.
any lobangs?
haha ! i never work before in my whole life. so this gonna be a hell of an experience yaw !

2007-09-08T11:43:00.000-07:00

got this from friendster bulletin ! so true omg. haha.

9 words that women always used:

1. Fine
This is the word women use to end an
argument when they are right and you
need to shut up.

2. Five Minutes
If she is getting dressed, this means a
half an hour. Five minutes is only five
minutes if you have just been given
five
more minutes to watch the game before
helping around the house.

3. Nothing
This is the calm before the storm. This
means something, and you should be on
your toes. Arguments that begin with
nothing usually end in fine.

4. Go Ahead
This is a dare, not permission. Don't
Do It!

5. Loud Sigh
This is actually a word, but is a
non-verbal statement often
misunderstood
by men. A loud sigh means she thinks
you
are an idiot and wonders why she is
wasting her time standing here and
arguing with you about nothing. (Refer
back to #3 for the meaning of nothing.)

6. That's Okay
This is one of the most dangerous
statements a woman can make to a man.
That's okay means she wants to think
long and hard before deciding how and
when you will pay for your mistake.

7. Thanks
A woman is thanking you, do not
question, or Faint. Just say you're
welcome.

8. Whatever
Is a women's way of saying F@*K YOU!

9. Don't worry about it, I got it
Another dangerous statement, meaning
this is something that a woman has told
a man to do several times, but is now
doing it herself. This will later
result
in a man asking "What's wrong?" For the
woman's response refer to #3.

**

haha ! meeting posb, prr, and hate/mp later on at esplanade. i miss you guys like 4589742trwjfrwa !!

2007-09-07T15:32:00.000-07:00

SENTOSA (:
there was the [p.o.s.b] and [w.a] ^.^
took cable car to sentosa ! palin's dad works there so we dont have to fork out even a cent. haha. went to pahlwan beach ! let the pictures do the talking okay ! (:

2007-09-04T22:20:00.000-07:00

grrr.
couples everywhere. all around me. myspace. friendster. school. and even at home ! okay honestly i dont know what the hell im blabbering about but one thing for sure, im forlorn, woebegone and bereaved ! okay, dosent that three mean the same thing? (english paper tmrw so im trying to use good words ! haha)
like seriously, couples holding hands, kissing, hugging around me and all. WHAT IS THIS MAN. hahahaha. lubna and myself was walking arnd in sch and we saw this really nerdy guy with this nerdy girl holding hands ! like EVERYTIME. recess, after sch, before sch and even between classes ! even nerdy people like that know how to love and i dont ! haha im pathetic ! and when i mean nerdy, I REALLY MEAN IT. downright hardcore nerdy type ya know. however, in the other hand, happy belated 6 mnths anni to iqah & ayus. omg 6 mnths. pretty long eh ! (: i'm jealous. hahahaha. they're so sweet together. their picture proves it all. im happy for her, really.

on a lighter note, dad bought a new car and LCD screen. oh yea, malay paper and ss was ok. i screwed up one ss question but i hope thats ok ! i badly wanna pass. wish me luck. english's tomorrow ! (:
anyways, ss paper was at 2pm just now. moonROCK sms-ed me around 12noon and asked me to hanged around with skinnyboi (abbas), hamdan and some of their other friends. They're from school. they're in ite bedok btw so it's kinda near so just hanged around with them for awhile with aida and went to school for paperrrr.

sentosa on thurs.
(:

oh yea, hanif's been discharged from hospital two days ago. yep! (:
get well soooon ok ! yayyy. hahahaha.

2007-09-02T16:55:00.000-07:00

hey (:
yesterday was asoblute fun ! visited hanif at tan tock seng hospital. he looked really sick. get well soon alright (: there was p.r.r guys and p.o.s.b. girlfriends. there was like around more than 20 of us althogether. took pictures but the pictures are not with me now. anyway we all ate at novena after that. headed to esplanade at night as usual and hanged around at the usual spot, carpark. took pictures ! it's big. im lazy to resize.

from left to right : haziqah, nor, nanie, erin, oza, ME , luby, huda, nanis, ifah.

i know my face sememek here.
you shut up .

headed to clark quey with the p.o.s.b, and rusty and moon after that. the rest of the p.r.r went somewhere else first and they joined us soon after. played truth or dare. thank god i didnt got any. haha. went home with luby by the cab after that. fare's 15 bucks. reached home around 10.30pm i think. yea. n's tomorrow ! wish me luck (:

p/s im lazy to update actually -.-''

2007-08-31T23:19:00.000-07:00

im bored ! bohooo.
today was boring ! school was a bore ! as usual. so yea, had the teachers' day celebration today. i think it's a waste of my time. had aces day ! did i spell that right? haha. had to walk around the neighbourhood. wth. i hate to get sweaty . it's been awhile since i did a REAL exercise. i've been skipping p.e lessons for lets say, 5 months? and more.

anyway ! good news everyone ^.^
teacher showed us the result slip :)
i got the 3rd in class yaw ! AND I PASSED ALL SUBJECTS ^.^
dream come true la sia. haha.
thank got my assignments pulled up my fnn marks ! and yea, all my subject marks are above 60! phew.

so many ex ping yians came back to school. and I THINK that they think THAT ping yi is having some fashion runway or something. dress to kill? wth. you're only coming back to your old school. SCHOOL la for goodness sake. datang stakat nak tangkap jambu. nak tangkap glamour. tak dapat ah. salah tempat sey nk dress up. i mean, why do they bother to even take the trouble to dress up and parade around school? im not reffering to all , but majority. sorry eh, this is my point of view. you dont like you go and die. who ask u to read my blog in the first place ! hahahahaha.

ive been mugging everyday ! i want to have no life for this last month before my major examssss. i'm a no-lifer. yay.

anyway luby was very belo today ! we were at burger king having our late breakfast just now and we were talking about childrens' day. alright so here's the convo.
me : i remember last time my dad use to bring me to pulau ubin during childrens' day to ride bicycle there with my brother and mum
luby : how to go pulau ubin ah?
me : take boat ah.
luby : sampan eh?

i was drinking my sprite when she said that and i almost spitted my drink out.
SAMPAN SIA.
who is the earth would take sampan now?
belo.
i mean can you practically imagine me with my family in an old unwanted sampan with missing screws and nails. holes here and there and dirty brown stagnant water with mozzies breeding on it, while sampan-ing our way there pathetically? sampai christmas pon tak sampai. oh and try imagining me with my baju kurung (the ugly kampong type) and my dad with his straw hat! HAHAHAHAHA.

-.-''
that, is my bestfriend.

2007-08-29T22:06:00.000-07:00

yesterday was spent with the bestiesss ! (: luby, narysal and azri.
It was a mugging session gone wrong. hahaha. i think 3/4 of the time was spent talking and gossiping rather than mugging. Haha but i had fun anyway (: As usual studied at marine parade's library and sat at cafe galilee. Luby's "fling" was there. LOL. Sat for around 2 hours there. Yep.
camwhoreeeeed.

NARYSAL !

AZRI !

i've a confession to make.
i'm obsessed over my hongkong disneyland's disney princess mechanical pencil.
i'll cry if i lose it or smth.

So yea, headed to parkway parade around 7pm to have dinner. Met Aida there as well. She was with her mumsie and sister. I had my usual ! Mee Pok at banquet. It's luby and my favourite food now. It's damn delicious okay. Anyway, while luby and myself went to the counter, the uncle smiled at us. He recognised me ! YAYYY. Well, he SHOULD and MUST recognise me anyway since i'm his regular customer. Haha. So yea, he was practically flirting with luby and myself. At first he was like, "eh hello ! wahh you like my mee pok alot ah?". so i just went with the flow and entertain him la. and then he was like standing there looking at us when he's supposed to be making the mee pok. and then he said something like "i dont want to make first. I want to stand here and look at you pretty ladies" WTF RIGHTTTT.

And then he also asked us if we're hungry so we said yeah. and then he asked if we want extra noodles and of course we said ok ! oh and the worst thing of all, HE OFFERED ME AND LUBNA TO WORK WITH HIM AT HIS STALL IN BANQUET ! what the hell eh. exoticas like us dont work there. HAHAHAHA. and obviously we said no. DUH. I'm pretty disgusted by that uncle but he dont look harm-ly (i dont think there's such word. LOL) and he seems pretty friendly anyway. Soooo..i think i'm coming there more often for mee pok since my craving for it has increased and nothing is better than getting extra noodles (for the same price) ^.^ hahahaha.

walked around parkway and all of us took the bus home (: cam whored here and there. i had fun ! reached home around 10pm (:

anyways, me and luby bought a tub of ben and jerry's today !
heaven heaven (:

hanif's in hospital now due to chest pain :(
he smsed me this morning and told me he's warded. i dont have the time to visit him now. i'm realllyyy sorry. i feel bad. i'm pretty busy with school and all. i'm having my n's next week in fact.
will be going thr this saturday with luby maybe.
get well soon alright hero (:

and omg can somebody tell me why im starting to jiwang again.
grrr.
BENCI BENCI BENCI!
*stares and lubna and laughs like monkey*

2007-08-27T15:15:00.000-07:00

i want to sleep ! :(
but its ok. let me get this post done and over with. there's pictures below so yayy !
i'm watching mtv while typing this post. it's avril's when you're gone muic video now. i feel like crying. oh wells..

friday, 24th.
went out with the ex after school. yea, faisal. he asked me out so we went to vivocity. and the first thing he said when he saw me was..
"eh you look chubby"
---.---''
i gained weight. i know. anyone else wanna remind me that? grrr. haha
had our lunch thr and just walk around. no doubt vivo's boring. what's so big about it anyway? lol. had ben and jerry's and all. sat at the rooftop. he bought his laptop along but we couldnt get any internet connection -.-'' so yea, walk around again and back to the rooftop about 7pm. find a nice spot and sat facing the cablecar. sigh. so yea we talked for about 3 hours and i swear time passed so fast :) it was nice catching up with u after for so long.

we're just friends..
nothing more than that (:

ben and jerry ! (:

this is why i took so long in the toilet =X
opps.

oh and yea, some self obsessed photos.

BAD
BAD
BAD
PICTUE QUALITY.

LONG LONG TIME AGO (padehal only few weeks back. was studying with luby at lib ! )

i look fat.
shut up.

saturday, 25th
for a record, i stayed at home on a saturday.
CAN YOU BELIVE IT?
i was down with a cold anyway so yea, better stay indoors (:

sunday, 26th
had to meet up with faisal because i unintendedly left my social studies book with him on friday. i brought my book along so i can you know, at least revise abit otw to vivo and he carried for me the book in his bag after that and i forgot to take it back -.-'' how clumsy can i get. so yea, met him at bedok (as usual) and took the bus to marine parade's library because i need to return some books. i've two overdue books and i've yet to finish reading it. HAHA. so headed to parkway parade after that cause i was seriously craving for mee pok. (pok, not pork, stupid.) it's my favourite food now ! yayyy (: lubna introduced it to me and omg im soo hooked to it now. haha so had our lunch and then we headed to East Coast Park since we've nowhere to go. Headed to McCafe and i had my usual, mocha frap. It tasted abit bland that time. Grrr. sat at the beach after that. sometimes it comes to a point where we've nothing to talk about and silence surrounds us.
he hafta go home early cause he's having his religious class so yea, i reached home around 8.30pm. THAT'S A RECORD IN MONTHS !

today, 27th.
you dont know how much i hate mondays.
going out with azri, narysal and lubie tomorrow. mugging session (: but going to stop by bugis for awhile to get some stuffs ready forrrrrr..sentosa outing on the 6th ! yayyy !

oh yea, please help me people.
i'm stucked in between. i feel like rebonding my hair but many says no but i wantttt tooooo. how? haha. i wouldnt have anymore bad-hair days if i were to rebond my hair but honestly, i will seriously miss curling my hair ends. lol. grr.
so, rebond or not?
thanks ! (: please help *insertonepatheticfacehere*

2007-08-25T09:29:00.000-07:00

i tried hating you but i just can't. i tried thinking of all the bad things you've done but it just wont work. i tried my best to foget about you but i kept on having flashbacks. everyone told me to move on with life because i dont deserve these heartbreaks. i tried to take a step forward but something's stopping me. i dont know why either. explain to me someone?

proper update (with pictures) on monday (:
so er, ive been tagged by hasinah. so ya, here goes.

THE SURVEY...

1.LIST out your top 5 birthdae present that u wish for:
(1) true love
(2) 10 million dollars.
(3) whole of topshop's and dorothy perkin's collection?
(4) tyson ritter.
(5) 1001 kisses and hugs.

2.THE person who tagged u is:
hasinah.

3.YOUR relationship with him/her is?
schoolmates yaw.

4.YOUR 5 impression on him/her?
happy,adorable,funny,down to earth,lovable?

5.THE most memorable thing he/she had done to you
hmm. when i was in secondary 2 and she was in secondary 3. we were pretty close. she'll wait for me after school and we'll go bubble tea together. sit under the block and she'll lend me a listening ear (:

6.THE most memorable words he/she have said to you.
i cant remember. haha sorry.

7.IF he/she becomes your lover, you will?
i'm straight.

8.IF he/she becomes your lover,things he/she has to improve on will be?
i belive tt i shld accept someone's unperfect-ness perfectly so i dont think she have to improve on anything.

9.IF he/she becomes ur enemy, u will?
obviously not. she's lovely.

10.IF he/she becomes ur enemy, the reason would be?
i dont know.

11.THE most desire thing you want to do with him/her now is?
i don't know.

12.YOUR overall impression on him or her is?
she's a great friend.

13.How u think the people around you will feel bout you?
irritating. i talk alot and i'll force people to talk pictures with me.

14.THE character u love of yourself are?
i don't know? i dont think it's for me to judge.

15.On contary, the character u hate of yourself are?
i'm a fickle minded idiot.

16.THE most ideal person u want to be is?
none.

17.PASS this quiz to 10 person..
(1) luby
(2) hanif
(3) shinx
(4) aunt nora
(5) zee
(6) faisal
(7) suyanti
(8) is'sha
(9) rika
(10) saliha

18.WHO is no (6) having relationship with?
faisal told me he's single. but i bet he's currently having a relationship with farfy (a bear that i gave him) because he sleeps with it everynight. HAHA

19.IS no (9) is a female/male?
confused. hahaha. female lah (:

20.IF no (7) and (10) are together, wil it be a good thing?
you think?

21.HOW'S bout no (8) and (5)?
i doubt they even know each other.

22.WAD is no (2) is studying about?
some course about computers? i forgot. hahahaha.

23.WHEN was the last time u had a chat with no (3)?
er i dont know.

24.WHAT kind of band music no (8) likes?
no idea. haha.

25.DOES no (1) have any siblings?
yeahs. a younger sister and brother. i love her little pri 3 brother. adorable maut. too bad he has a girlfriend. HAHA

24.WILL you woo no (3)?
i'm straight

25.HOW bout no (7)?
i'm straight.

26.IS no (4) single?
she's married yaw.

27.WHAT the surname of no (5)?
i dunno ! haha

28.WADS the hobby of no (4)?
shopping. haha. right aunt nora?

29.DOES no (5) and (9) get along well?
zee and rika? they dont know each other.

30.WHERE is no (2) studying at?
hanif? was from northBROOKS secondary (dont laugh at me hanif. i got it right this time. no more northbricks. haha) and now he's in ite simei.

31.TALK something casual bout no (1)
she's crazy. just like me.

32.HAVE you try developing something fer no (8)?
DEVELOPING WHAT?

33.WHERE'S does no (9) live at?
bedok ! kan rika? haha

34.WHAT colour does no (4) like?
many colours? hahaha

35.ARE no (5) and (1) bestfrens?
just friends i think. haha

36.DOES no (7) like no (2)?
hanif and suyanti ? haha. they dont know each other sayang.

37.HOW did u get to noe no (2)?
er, he's alyff's friend.

38.DOES no (1) have any pets?
she hate pets.

39.IS no (7) is the sexiest person in the world?
what the hell. i'm not lesbian.

OKAY FINALLY IM DONE.

2007-08-23T15:05:00.000-07:00

don't you know that i get jealous VERY easily?
so please consider my feelings alright.

that was random.
anyway, i did pretty well for my prelims ! (:
i passed english, malay, maths (YES I PASSED MATHS ! ) , comb humans (social studies and geography) and comb science (biology and chemistry)
and i failed my fnn by a mere two blardy marks. no one in my class passed fnn anyway. but i really hope my assignments will pull my grades up. i wonder why teachers are so stingy. two marks wont hurt you know. but i'm pretty proud of my maths and social studies.
oh hey, three cheers for me (: i top my class for biology . wheee.

going shopping on saturday with luby !
i think i need to stop spending too much on clothes. i bought three tops from topshop 2 weeks back and ive yet to wear them. and there are much more other clothes that have yet to be worn. but hey another piece wont hurt i guess.

ate ben and jerry's just now after school.
heaven i tell you.

i dont know why but in a way or another i hate this entry. bleargh.

2007-08-22T15:23:00.000-07:00

i'm blogging out of boredom so please excuse the pointless entry ^.^

friendster is gay. myspace is getting boring.
havent been eating rice for like 6 days ! i'm on a low-carb diet yaw.
hahaha so school is super boring these days. wait , school has always been a bore -.-'' so yea, nothing new. and trust me, i seriously don't know what i should type next.
this is depressing seriously.

oh you know giving people nicknames is fun.
lubna and myself created many many nicknames for countless people. penguin, nancy, sunny, alien, W.W, T.P, sony ericson etc etc. lame i know but who cares. it's like even if im talking about you infront of you using the nickname we "INVENTED" for you, you wouldnt even knw a shit so yayy (: gossip gossip gossip.

and i want cupcakes. pretty pretty cupcakes ! brownies cupcakes with whipped cream as toppings are superb yaw (: suprise me with that alongside with mocha frap and oreo cheesecake and i'll love you forever.

yayyness. weekends are around the corner. honestly weekends are the only reason why i'm alive. as usual, going to hit the town and inhale carbon monoxide. and dammit :( no more pretty fireworks. talking about fireworks, i want my wedding to have fireworks. i dont mind even if its for a minute but omg fireworks are beautiful.

i miss alot of people right now. particularly a handful of people. imyimyimy :(
and dammit. i feel like making this blog to private again now. haha. it's like i dont feel free expressing my thoughts so whats the point right? i dont have any interest for blogging anymore (okay maybe a little, but still) and this entry is such a bore so i seriously think i should end now and go to sleep.

love,
juliet.

2007-08-19T21:38:00.000-07:00

hello mellows (:

Friday , 17th
Watched 'License To Wed' with hanif the hero at cathay cineleisure . Not a bad movie. Pretty funny actually (: and a little sad. So i had my fried mars bars, LIKE FINALLY (: Met [p.o.s.b] and [hate/mp]s at night at esplanade. Watched fireworks. It was nice (: Had a little chat with the p.r.r. Abbas and Dhil are veryyy funny. LOL.
And anyways, thanks for the day hun. It's much appreciated (:

Saturday, 18th
Went out with the [P.O.S.B] babes. ifah and weenie joined us. Huda wasnt there
:( So as usual had our lunch at far east. Walked around. i bought a shawl at heeren for ten bucks. I think it's a waste. Gonna get a new one at far east (: So took the bus to esplanade and slacked at the carpark, as usual. The [hate/mp]s came soon after (: Took pictures before they came thou.

Me, Nor, Erin, Nanie, Nanis. [P.O.S.B] yawww.
Luby, haziqah and huda's missing ! :(

[P.O.S.B] LURVEEE.
oh yea, it's supposed to be a heart shape. hehe.

i wasnt ready. i know i look like i wanna box someone up.
left to right : weenie, ifah, luby, me of course, nor, nanis, erin and nanie (:

Played uno cards and i swear i suck at it. Hehe. Oh i swear the fireworks was awesome. Belive me, it was the nicest fireworks ive ever seen in my whole life. It's so colourful and i love it when the sky's filled with gold glitters pouring down on me. Luby and myself said a little wish. But oh well, i dont think i said a LITTLE wish thou. heh. I wished for a lot of stuffs. I'll definately wait for the day till it will all come true (:

So the girls wanted to head for clark quay. Me and luby took the train at raffles place and headed back home. Met someone at bedok's platform. Sigh.. Reached home around 11.15pm and omg i was so drained out for real. Took a warm bath and im gone.

Thanks for the day girls. I had fun, really (: Although you know, i was feeling a little awkward at night at esplanade (dont ask why), the day went smoothly. yayy (:

Today, 19th.
So yea, happy sunday people (:
Stayed at home the whole day. Highlight for today ? Watched the pacifier in my room while eating lasagne on my bed. tell me, how boring could it get? The rest was out except for my dad. Didnt do much after that. Rested on the bed while tuning to class 95. Tried to sleep but wasnt tired. I spent like about what, 5 hours on my bed staring at the ceiling ?!

Intensive study starts tomorrow.
and ohmygoshie, PRELIMS RESULTS TOMORROW.

<3,
julie

2007-08-16T15:14:00.000-07:00

don't bother reading.

i think ive come to a point of my life where i feel like negleting the world and just witness how time flies. i suck. like seriously. i've never done anything to be proud of. i make mistakes every now and then and i never have the chance to make things right. maybe i should really shoot myself dead huh. i suck at love. don't talk about it. it's so obvious. i'm not even sure of what i actually need. maybe i've been following my desires too much. but truth is, it was never satisfying because it dosent turn out the way i want it to be. life's unfair. or is it just me who take things for granted? oh wait, it IS me. back to square one, maybe i should just shoot myself dead huh. i've hurt so many people and i dont wish to hurt much more because it's hurting me at the same time. i just hate it how i'll walk blindly not thinking of the consequences. trust me, i dont wish things to be the way it is now. its more complicated than ever. i just need a hug. you know, a hug that will ensure me that everything's alright. not just a random normal hug. i need a big warm hug filled with love. love that comes within the heart and not just love out of plain words. i need assurance. i need care. need i say more? i'm not rushing. i'm just wondering when, what , how, who and everything that comes with it. it's funny how my tear ducts are activating over something so ironic. sometimes i wonder does anyone even appreciates or love me?
looks like such a typical teenage angst entry huh? but i dont think it's even near to typical if you're in my shoes.
i feel like as if i'm not myself these days.

sigh.
love,
julie.

you may set my world alight for just one day,
but can you do it everyday?

2007-08-15T17:04:00.000-07:00

hello monkeys (:
guess what honeys? tomorrow marks the end of prelims. YAYY (: last paper tomorrow, FNN. anyways, the rest of the papers was okay. maths paper 1 was easy peasy. maths paper 2 was alright. i screwed up my graph. 9 marks lehh. social studies and geog was pretty alright ! (: bio was neutral. everything that i studied came out. alhamdulillah (: and omg don't talk about chemistry please. i was dooddling on my question paper half of the time ! hehs. english and malay was normal (: but i did some stupid mistake. alah its okay, like what lubna said, "PRELIMS ONLY WHATTTTT" ah ye..i'll cry if i fail ok. HAHA.

no school on friday. yayyyy (: out on saturday as usual. gonna start studying for the major exams on monday. i hope i'll have the initiative to do so. force me anyone? heh. i need fried mars bars badly. i'm addicted to safe me from me by amber pacific again. i know its an old song but i get hooked to it since someone dedicated the song to me. sigh. it's the 13th last two days. how time flies. it's been four months and nothing much changed. maybe some stuffs are better left unsaid. . .

and hello shafirul (: haha. someone prince sey.
wheeeee.

love,

god or julie?

how i wish i have the answer to everything..

2007-08-11T15:53:00.000-07:00

okay so yeah,
HAPPY BELATED NATIONAL DAY YAW (:
(i swear i feel guilty blogging right now. shouldnt i be studying?)

alright so lets start with wednesday (8th august)
Initial plan was to watch disturbia with hanif but we missed the timeslot at cathay cineleisure becaue i was late (heh! sorry) so ended up walking around town. Saw Dilah ! omg i miss you babe. haha. Went esplanade at night. The sallys was performing. Met up with a new friend, nisa. And then followed hanif and met up with the [hate/mp] and [p.o.s.b]. Chilled at the waterfront while listening to the sallys. awesome music. Went home around 10pm. I swear i was dead tired. that explains the ugly picture.

alyff, me, asrulll.

he took my phone and took his own picture. ditto. haha

THURSDAY (national day)
i was damn excited on this day. no particular reason. just felt like a proud singaporean. cant wait to witness the fireworks again. wheeee (:
luby came my house first around three. we were like damn late cause was suppose to meet the rest at orchard around 3.30pm.
applied the fake tatoo ! singapore singapore ! haha.
Took the taxi to bedok and then took the train and reached orchard around 4pm ! gee sorry :(
amir, benson, nanis, nani and haziqah was waiting. LOL. so yea, alyff, hanif, asrul, andrew and apit came soon after.
the [hate/mp] and [p.o.s.b] yawwww. haha
had lunch at LJS and walked arnd. Took the bus to esplanade and yea, settled down at the padang !
went to esplanade after the fireworks ! slacked slacked slacked. yadayadayada.
was almost 11pm by then. took the taxi back home from city hall with luby. i think the fare's almost 20bucks. or more. geee. burn burn burn.

[P.O.S.B] LURVE.
from left to right : ana, nani, iforgothername, nanis, ME, haziqah, ena, luby!

[hate/mp]s. not everyone was there.

okay so from left to right, err, amir, andrew, apit(at the back), alyff, hanif (with the shades) and bensonnnnnnn (:

andrew [hate/mp]

nanis!

Stayed home on friday.
studied the whole day.
okay, i bluffed -.-''
studied only for five hours.
so yea, harris came my house ! YAYY

he was damn freaking adorable cann. he knock the door on my room and told me he wanna hug the big bear in my bed. sigh, memories.

took out crayons and drew some stupid stuffs with him.
imissbeingakid.

alright, i'm out.
and yeahs,
tag people, tag.

oh damn,
i miss alot of people now.
tralalala.

love,
julsssssss.

i miss blogging at march-lovescene.blogspot
sigh..

2007-08-06T22:28:00.000-07:00

DARLINGS,
IM ON A HIATUS.
having prelims la sayangs (:

LOVELOVE! (:

2007-08-05T16:17:00.000-07:00

Alright. Yesterday was close to awesome (:
Luby came my house around 2pm and we got ready. Off to meet the [P.O.S.B] girls at orchard MRT control station (: I know all of them through myspace (except luby of course). Wicked isnt it? There was Nanis, Erin, Nor and Nani. Some couldnt turn up due to some reasons.
So yea, [P.O.S.B] stands for pathetic, oreo, skanky, boncet by the way ! hahaha.

Met them around 4pm (: Off to Topshop at Wisma Atria. I bought a halter top there. The girls bought some stuffs too and off we went to Far East Plaza. Had lunch (: Didnt finish my noodle thou. They followed me to buy a necklace. It's prettaye! Yayy (:
Oh yea we girls clicked really well. awesomeness ^.^

Took the bus to esplanade. Baybeats yaw. We missed The Sallys and the crowd was like WOAH. Met the [hate/mp] near the esp carpark. Saw hanif. Still adorable as ever (: Said hello to alyff. omg that guy. didnt see him for like two weeks already ! haha. and there were loads and loads of people thr (: amir..saiful..azirah..mahirah..andrew..benson..blablablaalalalaa.

i didnt mosh. OBVIOUSLY. Hello, i was wearing heels. Just sat at the carpark with luby, erin, alyff and the rest which er, i dont really know their name. haha. sat till around 9 plus and send luby to the mrt (: Went back to the esp carpark and slacked around. Followed them to peninsula to play CS. It was alrd around 10.30pm and i hafta meet my brother. So yea, took the train with mahirah and headed back home. Reached home around 11.15pm i think.

i dont know why but i wasnt really myself yesterday. WHATEVER THAT MEANS.
I'M SICKKKK :(
oh guess what?
ENGLISH PRELIMS TOMORROW !

and i think ive lost the passion for blogging.
going out later with mumsie. yay. shopping.

2007-08-03T12:38:00.000-07:00

TGIF.

Bugis yesterday with LOOOBS. And i waited for solid 1 hr and 30 minutes for her.
I wasnt angy at her when she came thou.
No more bugis boy at heaven bag shoppe :( Grrr. WHERE ARE YOU.
Arab street was wicked. I faced my most embarassing moment yesterday.
Sheesha after N's?
And ohmycheese. I had a 'stalker' yest. Was at Raffles Hospital's Banqeut having dinner and theres this guy who was like staring at me while i was hving my dinner. ( I SWEAR HE WAS STARING. ) He was waiting for me to finish my food ( i assume he was waiting ) for like solid 45 minutes. Fish. Haha ! But finally he went away after i gave him that idiotic look.
Loobs told me to show him my most ugliest and disgusting look and i did and i think that pissed him off or smth. HAHA!
Wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee.

marine parade lib's picturess (:

MY HAIR IS FREAKING SHORT.
GROW FASTER PLEASEEEEEEEE :(

love,
julssssss.

p/s hott teachers . sizzzzling.

2007-07-31T22:02:00.000-07:00

i'm really exhausted :(
let's see..

- friendster.com is such a bore to me now.
- imeem.com is fckingly irritating (What's with it's 30 seconds preview?)
- i've 2076 unread emails that i dont even bother to delete.
- my msn's full with irritating pests.
- i use too much of my victoria secret's perfume and now my whole room smells of perfume. It makes me dizzy.
- Prelims this Monday
- I've yet to study
- I'm lazy to study
- My bio teacher is weird.
- I pity my malay teacher.
- My geography teacher's hairstyle is bothering me ALOT. It's freaking fugly. I SWEAR.
- Oh, it's like we have mock test/class test/ past year papers/ past year prelims paper to do EVERY LESSON WITHOUT FAIL . (Thats like an average of ONE paper EVERY hour)You.Want.Me.To.Die.Is.It?
- I write too much in my personal diary and i think half of what i write in there are crap.
- I should stop eating late night snacks.
- I should stop going shopping. I spend too much.

=X
happy august everyone :)

i thought you were my fairytale
a dream when i'm not asleep..

2007-07-30T13:42:00.000-07:00

hey gorgeous people (:

Aites, so saturday was lovely and it was well-spent. Haha. Watched the scary thai movie, 'alone' , with hanif (the hero) , asrul and weenie at cineleisure ! but hanif came without the white stallion :( haha!

I swear to god that the movie was scary shit. DON'T WATCH IT IF YOU'RE ALONE. Like seriously. Thank god hanif's there or i would have die there on the spot. And hanif sorry for er, pinching u! hahahaha. Dont blame me , blame the ghost =X Was too shocked . Grr. Like suddenly the ghost appear right infront of your eye. EEE scary shit !

So yea, movie ended at around 7pm and we headed to esplanade because they wanna meet their friends. The [hate/mp] and [p.r.r] (:

There's like more the 20 of us altogether? But not all of the [hate/mp] was there :(
Slacked there for a little while and i swear the fireworks was extravagant and breath taking. And for a record, ive witness fireworks for 4 weeks in a row. Yayness (:

Headed to clark quay soon after and i swear i love the path heading there. So peaceful (altho it was infested with loads of people) and i don't know. It was just perfect. Slacked for awhile and it was around 10.15pm that i headed home with weenie. Camwhored with hanif for a little while before that. He's so adorable. Haha

I swear i was scared on the way back home. Thank god alyff called to accompany ! yayy (:
Oh yea, the pictures are with hanif ^.^

Aites, so today's monday (du-uh) and yea, school was boring shit yaw.
Going out later around 4pm. Meeting luby at parkway parade. I wanna get the white jeans from MANGO and she wanna get a cardigan from there too (: I hope they have the jeans in my size or else i'm going to die on the spot. Im very lazy to go bugis to get a pair of jeans from there laa :(
Yea so we're studying later at marine parade's library till 9pm i guess. Anyone wanna tag along? haha!

p/s i dont wanna be the victim again.

2007-07-26T22:14:00.000-07:00

Well well (:
So yeah, blog was set to private for around three weeks for some reasons (:
Feels great to be back thou. Many asked why i set it on private. Sorraye huns. Publicity kills =X
nahhhhhhhhhhhhh. HAHA. Am just sick of some stuffs. yeahhs.
Now it's back to normal so yea, quit asking. HAHA. promised hanif to show him my blog so, here it is hun (: Its nothing much (:
Alright so honestly i kinda forget how to update a proper entry but i'll try to get back on track (:
But i'm lazy to like, update now ya know so here's just a summary.
Better than nothing i sppose. WHEEE (:

And i swear loads of stuffs has been happening (: Good stuffs, i supposed.
Life's always greener on the other side ^.^

Alright so, I love my lovely bestays (:
Iqah, Aida, Luby, Hana,
I miss you guys. LOADS.
N's and O's around the corner.
I wanna play pool after it's overr (:

Oh yea gotta know some new friends too .
and behold the ugliest picture of me. i swear i wasnt ready.

was seating/slacking at the biiig staircase outside marina while waiting for the fireworks (:

Me and azri's sister.

Just know them for around a week but they're really friendly, so yayy (:
Went out with them last saturday to bugis, orchard and esplanade. Had a great time. Seriously (:

Have been listening to loads of trance and raggae nowadays and i'm trying my best to get luby hooked to it. Cause it'll be a miracle. Seriously (: Oyeah, been hanging out with her at marine parade's library nowadays. Corner of cafe galilee ^.^ Sucha nice spot to study, NOT. HAHA. Should try the hot chocolate. Tastes awesome. Their oreo cheesecake aint bad either. Teenage Cafe @ Bugis still holds the best brownies and grilled chicken to me thou (: Speaking of that, i feel like having fried mars bars :(

lovely oreo cheesecake.

hot choc.

brownies (:

stupid picture. I SWEAR.

Oh yea went parkway today with Lubna.
Bought a tanktop at MANGO. Lovely (:
And grr, rusty dosent have nice sling bangs :( I wanted to buy a bag from there few days back but mumsie and bestie luby said it wasnt nice so yea. BOO :(

Been a prettaye long time since i hit town with Luby.
She have to like attend some lame (sorry luby) kenduri or something. Last week and this week
:( weak ah kau. HAHA.
So im free this saturday.
Date me out, anyone? HAHA! (:

love ya (:

p/s i've a hero ^.^

2007-07-08T11:47:00.000-07:00

HEY (:

yesterday (070707) was ..tiring ! went out at 2pm. Dong han picked me up under my block and we went to meet his other five friends. Went to raffles' place and suntec city. Walked around and such.
It was around 7pm that i left them and met up with azri, ahmad, alan, azni and his other friends at marina square. There's like 10 of us altogether. Went esplanade, watched the fireworks at night and slacked at waterfront yesterday .. and they drank.. Had a hard time finding seats! There's loads of people at esplanade. Everyone's rushing here and there..my head was spinning like hell. Its funny cause i CAN stand crowds most of the time but yesterday was like WOAH, thousands of people at the same place. Reached home at around er, 11.45 pm if im not wrong. Azri send me home. Thanks. I had fun. Gotta know a whole lot of new people. That's about it i guess. No pictures.

TOOOODLES.

2007-07-06T21:49:00.000-07:00

OMG.
am i like the only human being left on the surface of earth to know about the 'Life Earth' thingy? I mean, seriously ! Tomorrow's the 070707 and DUH, it's the Live Earth day. And yea, they encouraged us to wear a green top tomorrow (and the following day - Sunday) to support the event! DON'T YOU GUYS KNOW ABOUT IT? or at least, heard about it somewhere?
GRRR.
Seriously, it's freaking irritating. I asked around almost 10 people on msn today if they're wearing green tomorrow. And walau, they can even ask me "what for?" . So i patiently told them that tomorrow's the Live Earth day and we're supposed to wear green to support this event and help prevent global warming. And guess what? They can even ask me
"WHATS THIS LIFE EARTH AH?"
double period on that.

I supposed im one of the minority of the environment-friendly human being alive. SIGH.

Call me kiasu or whatsoever, BUT, my mum just bought for me TWO NEW GREEN TUNIC DRESSES FOR ME SO THAT I CAN WEAR IT ON SATURDAY AND SUNDAY WHEN IM GOING OUT !

Yes, Even my mum knows about the live earth thingy and the wear-green-to-support-live-earth thingy. AND YOU GUYS DONT. SIGH. what is happening to the world?
And seriously, i'm freaking half hearted.
Should i, or should i not wear my green tunic dress tomorrow? I DONT WANNA BE THE OUTCAST LA SIA.

That aside, i went out with my mumsie to Tampines Mall just now (yea, i didnt go to school today) to buy one new brown tunic dress and another blue vintage top. She paid for it. DUH. thank you (:
And guess who i bumped into at Tampines? THE SLEEQ GUYS (Sharif & Alif). i know, OMG RIGHT!
Was walking and then i saw them. I was shocked and i swear i can remember that my mouth was wide open. They saw it. HAHA.

Oh yea went out with issyah last 4 days (monday) to get luby's prezzie at far east. Lepaked after that and he played the guitar. Oh btw tune in to 98.7 fm every saturday around 7-8pm if im not wrong. Yea, they're going to play arrowhead's (issyah's band) singles. so yea. (: support local bands. haha

this is random.

at the school toilet.
aida & me ! and obviously im the one on the left.
YAYAYA IM A NERD.

:D

p/s SIALAH I WAS VIEWING SOMEONE'S PROFILE AT FRIENDSTER. SAKET ATI SIOLLL!!!!!! damn ar. grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr! fcuk you man!

pp/s sigh, i miss that special someone so much.

2007-07-05T16:30:00.000-07:00

first and foremost ,
(luby you should be honoured.)
HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY LUBNA BESTIE.

So yeah, hope all your wishes and wildest dreams come true (i know you have alot of wildest dreams which im sure they wont come true, but im just being nice here. HAHA JOOOKING). So youre officially LEGAL to go WHAAAATEVER (naughty naughty!) you want and wish TO DO. hahaha. okay so ure a year older now. hope you're more wiser. and lastly, good luck for everything. and yea, happy bitchday once again (: hope you like the dress/jumper.

so now, back to my wonderful life.
urm, nothing much happened. No, actually theres much stuffs thats been happening but im just lazy to type in all down. Futhurmore, i dont find the need to tell you guys. Haha i sound mean.

Urm, so school's pretty fine. I'm being escorted to school everyday. For real ! haha. And anywayss.. guess what pretty people?
I TOP MY CLASS FOR MY ENGLISH PRELIMS ORAL ! :D
i've got a 35/40 marks. Yay me !
i mean, seriously, i thought i screwed up my conversation. I was talking nonsense all the way and i swear i can remember myself talking with my hands moving here and there. I was outta control of myself cause i thought i screwed it up already so i told myself why not just screw it up more. HAHA.
Mdm noorzura was my examiner and she wrote a little comment for me at the paper (where they state down our marks ) . She said that the conversation was very good and i was very entertaining.
0.0"

oh wells, PHEWWWWWWWWWWWWW.
so i guess screwing up isnt that bad after all =]

My mum told me that i can sign up for language classes after my N's. OMG YAYYY. i want i want ! haha. i wanna learn either japanese or chinese. MACAM PAHAM. haha. but yea, she said it's better if i learn a new language for my own good so yea. Maybe i`ll just learn chinese since so many people thought im a chinese at first glance. and i just hate it how they will convey with me in chinese and then i`ll feel very dumb because i swear i dont understand a single word they are saying. and the only reply i can think of is "i dont understand you"
HAHAHA.
and i really2 hope that i can answer those people in perfect chinese (without feeling dumb again) after those beneficial language classes :D

ohkays. im done here.
BYE :))))))))

oh btw dont you guys just think the weather is so freaking weird this days? I mean it'll be raining in the morning and then it'll be freaking humid and scorching hot in the afternoon. And it's funny how i'll still feel hot even after switching the air-con in my room to the lowest temperature. maybe i'm just born to be hot huh. HAHAHA JOOOOOOOOOOOOKING ! sigh, global warming global warming ! :(

p/s i know my blog song is f-king irritating. no doubt about it. but the song makes me happy ! :D

2007-07-01T14:50:00.000-07:00

to be brutally honest, i seriously dont feel like updating. i'm sick. yea, down with a flu and er, serious headache :( didnt eat any medication yet. maybe later. i'm just lazy to take them.

Anyhoos, yesterday was urm, a memorable day indeed. To me at least :) Went out with the-greatly-missed faisal. Sigh, it's been two months plus since we last met.
no doubt that i miss you so much hun.
Went to Lido at Orchard and yea, bought tickets for transformers (digital). He've been wanting to watch it. I swear it's not my kind of show but yea, it's okay. Movie starts at 7pm so we have pretty much time to spent so walked around far east plaza. Faisal had his lips pierced for 65 bucks. It's a rip-off if you ask me. Haha. But it looks pretty hot on him thou :) Oh and did i mention that he had a new haircut ? No more long fringe. It's a mohawk now. He looks much better now. No doubt about that (:
The movie was alright. Was very humourous at first but i swear i dont understand the ending. I had short naps in between. Haha. So yea, it ended at 9.30pm so had supper/dinner at mcdonalds. Junk food again. Sigh, i really should cut on my junk food consumption lah. Grr. Wanted to take neoprints but most shops was already closed :( next time then.
Took the train home and yea, he send me home.
thanks for the hug . i really miss that warmth so much. i swear i do. sigh..
harry potter next?
Reached home exactly at 11pm. And out of a sudden im down with a flu and headache. I seriously cant sleep at night. I was crying on my bed :(
Finally i slept around er, 3am. Yea.
And urm, no pictures huns.

Sigh.
Right, i wanna take a nap now and hopefully, my headache and flu would be gone once i wake up. And then i`ll do my revisions. Thats a VERY dull day if you ask me. And the irony is, from today onwards till the very last day of my major exams, MY days are going to be as dull as this. No, it's going to be duller. Same goes to my entries. But i dont freaking care. This is what you call sacrifices, hun.

And look, i've just typed a whole lot of junk in this entry. But ey, to think of it, it's been a pretty long time since i've wrote some crap. So this wont hurt i guess.

AND OMG MY HEADACHE IS KILLING ME.

2007-06-29T09:33:00.000-07:00

Didn't attend school today. It's the be-yourself day celebration today and the school organised some lame games so i dont think im up for it. No school on monday (Youth day). Greatness. 4 days of holidays for me (:

Anyways, i promised myself that i'm going to hit the books regularly from now onwards. Been going home late almost everyday. Around 5pm. Sigh..
Three.More.Months.Left.
I can do it (:
Oh yeahs and i dont think that i'm going to have more interesting updates from now onwards. Sorry huns. Wont be going out too often. So i guess that explains everything. Except, if you find my lame (and pointless) entries interesting thou. And then that will be one whole different story.

Apart from that, i want to lose weight. i need to ! I should stop eating heavy supper. Anyhoos, azri is out of town. Take care hun (:

Oh and there's something i've been wanting to blog about since weeks ago but .. i forgot (ok, i was lazy) . I've a new obsessionnnnn (:
TYSON RITTER. All american reject's frontman. Sigh.

He looks a little like zac effron dont you think ?

Oh my fries are ready. Ciaoooooo (:
(yes, i'm having oily oily fries for breakfast.)

2007-06-25T15:34:00.000-07:00

hey huns.
had school earlier on and i swear i hate it :(
i need more holidays pretty please with a cherry on top !

anyhoos went out with luby last friday.
We went bugis to have a last look on our bugis boy (wont be heading bugis too often now you see) and grrr. he's not there. i mean, we never fail to see him everytime we step into bugis. but sheesh ! lady luck's not shining on us. grrr. worst come to worst, maybe he's not working there anymore =/

had a light lunch at teenage cafe as usual.

headed to far east soon after to hve our fried mars bars ! (:

i was showing off my pink nails.
haahaha.

i look fat.

i needa lose weight

i'm gonna stave myself to death. not.

i have to go on a diet.

yes i must. i promise.

i look weird. and fat. ditto.

FATTTTTTTTTTT

so anywaysss. walked arnd and such. saw many people ! (: hello you. haha
so yeahs at about 6.30pm we headed to Tampines Mall. Have to meet ronnie there.
Reached around 7pm and he came arnd er..7.30?
so yea, luby went home. watched Fantastic 4 with him. his treat. thanks (:
no doubt jessica alba was sizzling hot. and err, what's the guy name? the one who can turn into fire or something. yea, whatever his name is, i think he's like so hot. silver surfer's like freaking sexayyy. hahaha. so yeah show ended arnd 10 and he send me back home. thanksssss (:

oh yea by the way received the new school timetable today i swear it sucked. i hate school ! literally. hahaha. but still, i need a break. ok fine, 1 month of holidays just passed but it wasnt enough. to me that is. haha

let's see. so i'm single once again. AGAIN. yea. studies comes first baby (: 3 more months of struggling and i'm off having fun.
i can persevere !!
to think of it, 3 months aint enough for everything. there's like approximately 90 days. and then i`ll sit for the major exams. wooo that's sounds scary.

wish me luck huns (:

2007-06-21T21:10:00.000-07:00

hey honeys.
luby, iqah and myself opened up a blogshop. check it out huns.

www.mylittle-shoppingdomain.blogspot.com

great items. great deals.
spread the word around aites. it'll be greatly appreciated.
interested in any items, just email us at
glitter-touch@hotmail.com

thanks loves.
good day(:

2007-06-18T15:33:00.000-07:00

.editted.
pictures are all jumbled up =.='' sorry.

i'm not in the mood to update. but , nevermind (:
went sentosa yesterday (: i was so excited for the trip that i woke up at 5am and sms-ed iqah just to tell her that i'm downright excited! hahaha so yea, went vivo via the train. there was iqah, ayus, alvin, acul and nadia (: aida , luby and hana cant make it cause they have something on :( head to vivo mart first to get all the snacks and then headed to coffee bean for breakfast. had their chicken pot pie. waited for azri at vivo and he came like around, 20 minutes after that? grrr. so yea, took the bus to .. PAHLAWAN BEACH (:
yayyyyyyyyyyyy. reached around 1.30pm !

had our spot and then changed ! rushed to the water and swimed ! LOL. i was damn excited laaa. was laughing all the way!

hunkies. haha
acul , azri, alvin, ayus.
and i just realise that their name starts with the same letter. lol

si giler.
hahahahaahahahaha

azri & acul !

acul and nadia went back home around 5pm because they have to attend something i guess.
so anyways, we all swam and i became a mermaid for a while. haha. so then at around 6pm we went to the washroom and bathed. me and iqah spent like around, an hour in the toilet. HAHAHA. the boys have to wait for us for like around 45 minutes :) well, you have to ge used to it, you know.

walked around pahlawan and we took picturesss (: anyhoos, we bought tickets for songs of the seas earlier on and the show starts at 7.40pm. so we went to the venue soon after and boy, the performance blew my mind away. it was extravagant and it was downright amazing. there were several shocking moments. hahaha. and yea, i enjoyed every moment of it (:

show ends at around 8.15pm i think. so yea we went back to the habourfront interchange via the bus. took bus number 65 back home. it was like an hour and a half ride ! grr. was damn cold in there. walked back home with azri, iqah and ayus (: reached home around 11pm.

i had fun. pure fun (: thanks honeys for the day. i love each and everyone one of you. i do.
we shall do this more often after the major exams aites? now its time to hit those books. grrrr

was taken few weeks back with iqah (:

taken few days back.
was slackinggg after ktv.

anyways, i had school today at 8am.
i swear i had difficulties waking up. i set 3 alarm clocks but none managed to wake the hell of me up. grrr. in the end i woke up at 7.55am. GREAT isnt it? =.=''
so yea. sms-ed luby and aida and they were late too. yayism. haha so took my time to have a shower and luby waited for me under my block. went to school , met aida at front gate. Reached class around 8.45am. WE'RE 45 MINUTES LATE.

CHEMISTRY WAS A BORE I TELL YOU.
but i still manage to absorb some knowledge ! (:

i was practically resting my head on the table throughout the lesson and i was half asleep =.=''
class ends at 9.30am.
Biology class was next. But only 5 people turned up. So ms shahizah said the class' cancelled cause she also very lazy to teach and there's no point teaching only 5 souls when the others are missing. HAHAHAHA. so yea, our stomach was grumbling real bad. so went to the prata shop nearby with luby, aida, adam, khaalis (a.k.a rino) and acik. had prata cheese and prata plain. yummehhhh (:

all of them walked me back home. how sweet (:
luby and aida came my house. aida needed the toilet badly. hahaha. luby stayed till around 1pm (:
played the computer and took pictures using my webcam!
pretty ugly pictures.

there's sch tomorrow but im pretty sure i'm not going (:
chalet at sentosa on wednesday and thurs. yayism !

2007-06-16T13:02:00.000-07:00

stayed up till four in the morning

&

the tears are pouring..

it's ironic how i spent hours thinking about the problems over and over again with the intention of making it right but i`ll end up hating and regretting the decision i've made.
but maybe the decision ive end up with is the best for me. and the best for everyone.
i've lost hope. i do. i totally do.
i'm tired of thinking that there's still possibilities when the fact is, there wouldnt be any.
even if there are, they're gonna pass by me just like that. why? because like the other possibilities that had passed by me before, they didnt work at all despite trying to make full use of it. i'm tired of convincing myself that one day, things will be like before. but i guess it wont and will never be like before. because it wouldnt work if only one party (and apparently, that is me) is trying to fix things on its own. it wouldnt happen and it wont work. it takes two hands (in this case, two hearts) to clap. but it seems that it has always been me who's been trying and hoping. i've come to a conclusion that it's of no use. he dosent care. and even if he does, it isnt enough.
so now im opening a new door. a bright one i hope. and i'll just pray and hope i would be able to face the upcoming obstacles and overcome it with courage. i belive if i'm able to do it once, i'm able to do it for the rest of my life.
it's okay if i stumble and fall. i'm more than willing to give myself a chance to stand up again with pride and show everyone that i'm able to do it on my own. and to move on despite all the emotional bruises obtained.

but whatever it is.
i'll move on with you silently at the back of my mind
&
with you close to my heart.

[13]

and xuren (a.k.a marshmallow) was kind enough to be concerned abt me (:
i woke up today and i had an sms from him.
"hey..saw your blog last night..just wanna say try not to fret over problems. time will solve it. sure it will pass, just that a longer time is required. be the cheerful farah you used to be..ur much more cuter that way. haha. if you dont mind i can share your prob..just dont fret too much. live life to the fullest =D "

AWWWWWWW. thanks hun (:

and my honeys,
guess what?
my prepaid had like, exactly 70 bucks in it 5 days back.
and guess how much my prepaid value is now?
10 bucks.
=X
yes, i sms alot.
i wouldnt be surprise if i obtained like, muscles around my fingers.

2007-06-15T15:15:00.000-07:00

i'm in a state of confusion.
and i'm not sure how and when will it all be alright. i`ll just keep my fingers crossed for now and i`ll just hope everything will be fine one day.
i can't do anything much for now cause i dont even know which direction i'm heading to. and i'm not even sure what i want for now or what i'm supposed to do when it's been clearly stated that my prelims are coming VERY soon but i cant seem to focus on anything.
yes my dears, it's that bad :(
i'm at the verge of crying right now as i type. yes, go on and call me a weak little girl or whatever.
things used to go the way that i want it to be. i mean, last time, i dont even have to think of anything much. i dont even have much problems. my problems come and go just like that. and things will surely go my way and everything would be fine in a split second.
but now it's like a total turnover. everything changed. problems come and stay. it's pilling up high and it's making me hard to sleep at night. they haunt me and made me cry. they're baddies. i'm not used to this. i'm not used being in this situation.
but thanks lub, iqah, hana, aida and everyone else for guiding me through.

anyways went out to east coast and parkway about 5 days back..
went to suntec and slacked at esplanade with azri and sani (a.k.a sunny bunny) 3 days back i think.
and yea, went to katong yesterday with lub, iqah, hana, azri and sani yesterday. went KTV. they sang. i didnt. slacked with azri, iqah and sani at marine parade after that. headed home at around 9.15pm..reached home around 10pm.

that's about it..

going sentosa on sunday.
for once. let me take a break from all those hardships.
i wanna have fun on that day (:
real pure fun.

2007-06-12T12:51:00.000-07:00

nothing's new. i've been going out on alternate days and i'm friggin tired =X
now i think it's time to stay home and mug. moreover prelim's coming.

and i dont think i'm going to blog about what happened and such cause errr.. nevermind. i'm scared there's going to be rumors or whatsoever. so yea..you get the drift.

but anywaysss...
I MISS MY BABES, NERDS, HUNKS, DUDES AND EVERYONE SO SO MUCH ! (:

YEAR 2006. MENDAKI MOMENT(:

YEAR 2006.AIDA'S BIRTHDAY. AFTER SCHOOOL.

YEAR 2005. ME AND IQAH AT TOWN.

YEAR 2005. MODERN DANCE (:

OMG !! THIS IS SOOOO EARLY SEC 2s!!! HAHAHA. KENTALAN SIA.

YEAR 2007 ! ROCKIES CHEERLEADING SQUAD. WE'RE THE CHAMPIONS :D

SEE THAT TROPHYYY ?! :D WE WORKED HARD FOR IT KAYYYY.

SPOT ME ! :D

EARLY 2007. AT ALVIN'S BDAE CHALET.

MY FRIENDS ;P MUAHAHAHAHA

I LOVE HANA !! WE'RE NERDS. HAHAHAHA

WITH AIDA. (LUBY WAS BEHIND ME)

LEFT : HANA.

RIGHT : HAZIMAH

I LOVE YOU PEOPLE!!

MY BABES.

THEY'RE ALL MINE.

2007; sports day !

btw, all of us drew "i love rockies" around our cheeks area.

JIWERRRRR.

hahhha

alvin & adi.

at school during recess. iqah's mini bdae suprise!

LUBY !! TAKE CARE AT PENANG !

OH I LOVE THIS BITCH SO MUCH !

AIDA !!!! :D

ESPLANADE =]

When the sun shine we'll shine together
Told you I'll be here forever
Said I'll always be your friend
Took an oath, I'mma stick it out 'til the end
Now that it's raining more then ever know that we'll still have each other

2007-06-09T01:00:00.000-07:00

Today's the 9th of June.

Happy 18th Birthday to you, Faisal (:

May all your wishes and wildest dreams come true (: Good luck for your future endeavors. You're a year older now. I guess you will be more wiser (: Please dont ever give up easily ok ? You know you can do it. Live life to the fullest. It's 2 years till you hit your big 2-0. So yea, although we're not as close as before, please bare in mind that...i still care for you. And i'll be there if you need me. The two years spent with you was the best years of my life. And please belive me when i say those memories will be kept close to my heart. And nothing and nobody can ever take over that place. And since we're not together anymore, i wanna wish you all the best for your future relationships with whoever or whatever.
And i hope you'll have fun on this special day aite. There's nothing more to say. But just bare in mind everything that i said to you on our 2nd year anniversary.
Once again, happy 18th birthday.

I can't seem to control my heart when it comes to love
I wouldn't have started if I knew It'd be like this

I told myself I didn't love you
I hoped we were just passing acquaintances
Because all i'll have left is pain

monday, 040607.

Went out with narysal (: he kept on calling me a poohead ! GRRRRR. he's a gay fag. MUAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA and ha and ha.

Met him at 3pm and i was late for like 30 minutes. Sorry pantat. Haha. Headed to orchard. I bought a brown skirt at fourskin, heeren. And urm a very very cute pink glitter nail polish at missha ! I'm a very proud owner of pink nails now ! :D And yea bought ZA's compact refiller too.

Wanted to buy a top at topshop but there's no size so narysal patiently followed me to topshop's outlet at bugis to check the size out. But again there's no size. LIKE WTH KAN. boo ! haha. So yea took the bus to parkway parade. (I was very determined to get that top you see.) That was our last resort. Went to topshop and yay me (: they have it in my size. So bought the top and walk around.

GAYFAG.

yes, narysal was pointing to the lippie glossie he bought for me. thanks bestie!

Dear narysal bought for me revlon's lip gloss for 19.90. Sweetness. Walked around and i bought wedges at bata ! cheap deal man. Yearps (: Chilled at McCafe after that. Narysat ate mcdonald's meals and i had their mocha frappe.

narysal bought all that.

Oh yea we took the bus home and we walked halfway. While walking we saw this wet concrete. It havent dry up yet so we cheekily took the sticks and wrote our name ! HAHAHAHA

tuesday, 050607

Went out with my mumsie, auntie and cousins. Had lunch at bagus. They only sell yong tau foo and i'm not a huge fan of it so i dont think the trip there was beneficial cause i didnt eat much. Blearghs. Headed to expo next. There's this john little mega expo sale.
My mumsie bought for me two new wedges.

(THAT'S A TOTAL OF THREE WEDGES WITHIN TWO DAYS) urm and for your information, WEDGES are actually high heels. SOME people thought they're fries. I mean, yea, some fries are called wedges too but why the hell would i be happy to buy fries?!?!
And she also bought for me a big tote bag. And some lingerie. I likee (:

wednesday , 060607

Met luby around 3 plus if i'm wrong. Yeap. Headed to parkway parade cause she wanted to buy the same topshop top. It's really very prettttty :D So yea had our lunch at the food court there cause i was seriously craving for their nasi goreng ayam merah ! *droooolssssss*

Luby had thier mee hongkong or something like that. And she hates it. LOL
Headed to expo next to accompany luby. She bought few stuffs. Oh yea funny thing is, when wanted to go to the cashier, we didnt know which one to go to. Cause theres like around 20 cashiers. So we paraded infront of the cashiers. HAHA we actually wanted to go to a cute cashier but all very buruk you know. So in the end we got this some fuck-ed up bitch and she called us a biatch (VERY SOFTLY). WTH. I mean, you dont have to hate us just because we dress nicer than you. Whatever.

And we went back to her house to chill. Initial plan was to watch deal or no deal with her and then i`ll head back home but danial (luby's little brother) forced me to sleepover ! hahaha. And luby wanted me to sleepover too so yea, i slept over at their house. Grrr. Last minute plan ! But i had fun anyways (: Ordered mcdonald's around 2am.

I think the mcdonald's delivery guy is damn cute lar seriously ! hahaha. EEEE gatal nyer. LOL. But anyways, we gossiped alot. ALOT. We gossiped about everyone and everything :D Slept at 4am and woke up at 12 noon (thursday) !!

thursday, 070607

so yea like what i mentioned, we woke up at 12 noon. Had lunch. Her mum's cooking damn delicious. So yea, we got ready and we followed her dad to the west to change their car. It's nice. yeaaaa.

if you guys havent realise it by now,

I TRIMMED MY FRINGE !! ARGHHHH

the original length was around mouth there. now it's my eye level. gee.

Went back to her house and we went to the stationary shop nearby. Bought colour papers for fnn's coursework. Gee. It was around 5.30pm by then and i swear the sun was seriously shining brightly. grrr. I swear you dont know how much i hate that feeling !

So both of us settled down for desserts at the food court nearby. Ordered Chocolate Ice Kacang, Longan ice kacang and soursop ice kacang. AND WE WERENT SATISFIED. the chocolate ice kacang dosent taste chocolatey. The longan and soursop was so little ! Wasted 4 bucks.

Went seperate ways and headed back home after that (:

2007-06-07T21:09:00.000-07:00

so loves,
4 rejected.
i dont belive in romeos, remember?

let's welcome 'A' and 'R' .

(:

gee, i've been like going out EVERYDAY. too many to talk about,
i'll update a proper entry on saturday.
if i feel like it that is.

last but not least,
two can play the same game.

2007-06-03T22:41:00.000-07:00

Never thought that it would be like this.

**
This is my current single status
My declaration of independence
There's no way I'm tradin' places
Right now a star's in the ascendant

2007-06-02T09:40:00.000-07:00

dear strangers,
it's 9.15am and im wide awake. Hana called me early in the morning and i cant get back to sleep now. And i didnt know what day it is today until i sign in to my msn. Like what the hell right. And then i realise ive not been blogging
*insert spastic face here*

So yea, this week i skipped school for like..everyday? I didnt attend many many classes. Out of the 5 weekdays i only attended yesterday's fnn class. MUAHAHA. If it wasnt for my teachers who called my house and practically beg me to come school, i dont think i'll come school either ! *smirks*

Yeah grabbed my report book yesterday too. Was supposed to come to school and collect it few days back but er yeah, i skipped school.
ANYWAYSSSSSS,
i got 4th in class (out of 38 students) :D yayyyy.
But truth is, i'm not satisfied. Passed everything except for maths. In which i failed by 9 marks. grrrrrrrr.
Level position , ive got positon 18th (out of 145 students)
not bad, not bad.

Bestie Aida's class position is 5th.
Bestie Lubie got 6th.
And i'm 4th.
So its like, 4th, 5th, 6th. COOL KANN.

By the way i catched Pirates of the Carribean with my fam at Tampines Mall last two days and it was mediocre. neutral. nothing special. It has a pinch of humour but was not enough to make me laugh my ass off. So too bad. Had pastamania for lunch after that with my family and i swear i hate their creamy chicken pasta or whatever it is called. I dont even bother to know. i hate it. i swear i prefer the beef bolognese much more. In the end, my fam ordered for me their pizza. Gosh. much better.

SHOPPING SPREE WITH LUBNA SOON ! i cant waitttttttttt!

and oh my god. why does everyone think ive rebonded my hair? i dont. get it, i dont. i just straighten it temporarily for that particular day. catch that, temporarily. so now my hair's back to its normal wave. grrrr.

2007-05-29T22:07:00.000-07:00

hey angels (:
yesterday was the long awaited day for me & luby. hahaha. she came my house around 12pm to leave all her stuffs behind [she's sleeping over ya see] and then we went white house [it's a salon btw] to get our hair straighten temporarily.

head to bugis next ! obviously. muahaha. saw our pretty boy again. but at a different view. a much more better view :D ate at teenage cafe for lunch as usual. both of us had their grilled chicken. Oh by the way, we did something extra ordinary. We came up with tips for girls who's going on a date or something :D we're kind people. so yea..,

STUFFS NOT TO DO WHEN GOING ON A DATE .
follow this tips and your date wont be disgusted by you :D

#1. do not pick your nose

#2. do not keep on turning left and right. it might be just so irritating. well, i find it irritating. LOL

#3. i know sometimes cutting meat can get very frustrating but just chill aite.

#4. do.not.play.with.your.utensils.

#5. do not bite your straw. i bite my straws too. but its funny how i hate seeing people biting their straws. the irony ! LOL

#6. DO NOT EAT MESSILY !! *stares at lubna*

#7. do not..err..just do not eat like this..

#8. how hungry you are, do not chuck the whole meat inside you mouth la =.=''

#9. do not drink the water from the cup itself when there's obviously the straw.

#10. i know guys can be very boring sometimes. most of them are very self-obsessed. but please hor, dont yawn.

#11. guys can be very disgusting when comes to eating. but dont give him that look.

#12. some guys can be very entertaining, but dont get too overjoyed.

#13. i know they talk alot of crap and you just dont know what they're talking abt sometimes but dont give them that look. it'll scare them off.

#14. do not be bimbotic. ok?

lastly,
end the dinner with a sweet smile (:

MUAHA-ha-ha-ha.
roight..
anyhoos, supposed to meet adan but i didnt. opps. i'm sorry :( dont marah hor. and yea, we took the bus to orchard next. supposed to meet how cher & his other friends too but we didnt. haha. but anyhoos, walked around far east and had fried mars bars. we sat at the second level outside the neoprint shop. we laughed out heads off when we saw a group of mats in the neoprint shop ! LIKE WHAT THE HELL. i didnt know mats take neoprints. i mean, of couse i know some mats take neoprints but.. LOL. hahahaha and then lubna and i were like imagining them taking neoprints and write captions like "sachok tk?" , "berg tk?". MUAHAHA. we're bad people.

walked around heeren and such. i think we visited the toilet around a total of 15 times yesterday. so yea we head outside orchard cineleisure at around 7.45pm cause arrowhead's gig starting. saw them at the stage. issyah's hair damn long, and silky. haha. anyways chatted with issyah on msn that day. he told me that he's having sore throat or something but i guess it didnt affect their performance cause his voice was awesome ! (:
he's the lead guitarist and lead singer. how cool is that?

way before their performance. they're on the stage btw.

they sang alot of their originals and some other songs. so many emo kids there. i like. haha. so gatal ! but anyways, we watched their performance from the start till the end. it was 45 minutes. i was using wedges again. my legs were killing me. but it's ok (: sacrifices!

issyah danced a little at stage. so cute ! haha. but anyways after their performance, they came to meet us. and then issyah wanted to have his dinner so yea we accompanied him to LJS. I didnt talk alot cause i was ..err..shy. haha. but anyways, lubna and i love his fingers. it's so long and just so perfect.

so yea, took the bus home. was a long 45 minute ride. dropped at bedok interchange. wanted to take pictures but the bus came so yea. other time maybe (: and they're having their next performance at plaza singapura this saturday. i'm not sure if we're coming but all the best ARROWHEAD!

and i cant wait to listen to their songs on the radio !
so yea lubna came my house cause she's sleeping over. we reached my house like around 11.10pm. yupp. went online chatted with issyah. anyways we cooked !! haha
we made cambell soup, pizzas, french toast and err...our very own omelette with hotdogs and crabmeat ! :D so fattening ! supposed to make sushis but .. hahhaha.

so we watched shallow hal at my room and ate our very very late supper. slept around 3.30am !

so yea woke up around 11.30am! =.='' like what the hell . anihoos, lubna went to meet her fam at parkway around 1 pm so yea.

adan, im sorry again. and azri [not my classmate lah] sorry cant meet you tomorrow. gosh. i feel bad =X

and sigh, i dont wish to hurt any party. him or him or him or him? ...help ! and i miss the other half.. :(

2007-05-28T20:28:00.000-07:00

i miss you too..
and some other things are better left unsaid..

2007-05-26T09:04:00.000-07:00

alright. it's 11.23 pm now. damn tired :(
anyhoos, today was fun. i mean, just now. yea.
went out with narysal, nadia and hafis asari. yes, that guy who sang minah tudong and mat tappered.

i didnt take a picture with him :( stupidity.
but anywaysss..
narysal picked me up at 2 under my block. met nadia at bus stop and went city hall where we met hafis. yea he's a funny guy. walked around marina square. had lunch at macdonald's. had a nice chat with him. hahahaa. he and his "MISTAKES-S-S-S-S-S" lol. its dosent sound funny here but it does when he said that. hahaha. okay. yea went raffles place next. and then nadia and hafis wanted to watch a movie. narysal and i didnt want to. so we went seperate ways. yeaapp. narysal and i went esplanade ! WE ARE CAMWHORER. okay, just me. he's a cam-fag. LOL.

ENVY MY HAIRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

HAHAHA
I WAS USING NARYSAL'S SPECS
I LOOK WEIRD MAN

saya jimmy neutron punye kakak sedare.

narysal said i look pregnant.
hahahahahahaha

was playing with narysal's hoodies. lol

had fun with him ! took stupid videos. hahahahahaha. some push-up thingys. LOL. okay it's an inside joke. but anywayssss. it was around 6pm and we didnt know where to go. so we walked to city hall and spent around 10 minutes infront of the singapore map deciding where to go next ! LOL. so we end up at expo cause narysal told me there's some sale. so yayyy SALEEEEEEE.

he let me listen to all the songs he sang. wah piang damn nice. and it's a compliment right from the bottom of my heart. narysal, dont kembang. hahahahaha.
oh and yayyy ! narysal BOUGHT me two wallets!!
:D :D
i loike it. youre the best. hahahaha

I LOVE THIS MAN!

YAYYY. NARYSAL AND I HAVE THE SAME KIND OF WALLET :D
HE'S IN BLACK.
MINE'S PINK

so yea we walked around food festival next.
i drank anything
narysal drank whatever
HAHAHAHAHAHA
and we ate dodo
damn niceee. i loike. but i didnt finish it up anywayyyy

so yea.... we did chicky dance on the way to the bus stop ! hahaha. we should do that more often narysal ! hahaha. yeappp. drop at chai chee. narysal wanted to send me home cause it's close to 9pm and he dosent want me to get into any trouble but i told him its ok so yea i went back home aloneee. reached home, my brother asked me out to bedok. so i followed him lorrrrr. yea. so reached home around........10.30pm?

i was using wedges and my legs were killing me. urgh.
but anyways, i had a wonderul day :D

2007-05-25T15:22:00.000-07:00

i'm home alone. yea im back from luby's.
check this out.

mine.

mine.

mine.

mine.

mine.

mine.

mine.

mine.mine.mine.mine.mine.mine.mine.
all seven of them.
hmmm.
since theres seven of them, i'll change my handphone wallpaper each day ! so they'll take turn to be my baby :D
perfect.

tiny pizzas at the top lef
choco-berry smoothie at the top right .
strawberry sensation at the bottom left.
oatmeal and date brownies at the bottom right.

i've got 23/24 for my 'n' level fnn coursework Part A.
how's that ? :D

2007-05-24T22:24:00.000-07:00

dear whoever..
i'm at luby's house now..yea i'm sleeping over (: and she's sleeping over at mine on tuesday.
anihoos, I DID ASOBLUTELY GREAT FOR MY FNN PRACTICAL !! thank god :D
i mean, really, everything turned out perfect. My brownies was soooo much better and i swear it wasnt reallly moist nor was it burnt. it was perfectly baked ! my tiny pizzas was damn cheesy and thank god my cheese didnt char this time. my STRAWBERRY SENSATION (strawberries dip with melted chocolate) was oh my god damn mouth-watering cannnn?? a bite of it can make you crave for more! my choco - berry smoothie wasnt the best thou. i've the pictures in my thumbdrive but i didnt bring it along with me so yea, i`ll post the picture in the next entry maybe (:

apart from that, my mid year exams results wasnt satisfying but i belive i can do much better. what a typical phrase. LOL. but it wasnt that bad thou but im not proud of it in any way.

anyways i went to my cousin's chalet yesterday at aranda country club. my cousins brought thier friends along and boy, they are sure damn hott.
i went sauna and steam with my cousins. its been a loooong time since i went for sauna and steam. i was perspiring like nobody's business in the steam. it was a sense of satisfaction thou cause i can feel my fats burning off!

there's cross country tomorrow. im not going cause...the answer's obvious isnt it?

and im like so frustrated..
i just topped up my prepaid $100 early this month..and yea..
i've 20 bucks plus left now..like what the hell.
but its okayyyyyy.....hahaha.

ciao.

2007-05-22T10:34:00.000-07:00

editted! [there a video below]

pictures at luby's..

luby did my hair for me!

yay. monyet[naqib] claimed that i look like a bardie doll ! :D

OKAY THIS VIDEO IS DAMN MIANG OK!
it was taken...hmm lets see..around a week ago? after ss exams i think. yea, at the roti prata mamak shop. hahahahaha. i was talking about the chi guy beside our table. my voice damn irritating.

and if the video thingy dosent appear, click this to view the video at youtube itself..
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Qcd0wt9KhPo

blearghs. i was disguted at myself after watching the video too.
and i swear i prefer to watch the video without turning on the volume.

[/editted]

my gosh.
i was friendster-hopping and i viewed this guy's profile. he's like the sweetest man alive. okay, he's not the sweetest but one of the sweetest.

i viewed his pictures and read his profile. there's s video at his profile. a video of him strumming the guitar and he was singing to his girlfriend which is beside him. AINT THAT SWEEET? he was looking in her eyes all the way. i envy that girl. seriously. no, not that im in love with that guy or something. i don't even know him ! LOL. i just..envy what she have and the unconditional love she received.

I've this wish. A wish that no one has ever make it come true. No one.
You know, my PERFECT DATE dosent have to be in an italian restaurant or some expensive restaurant to have a dinner. But if he insist on having a dinner, then that would be super sweet. But i would prefer a dinner by the beach with some musicians strumming the guitar next to our table. And next,a walk along the beach, holding hands. And then we would lie on the sand and just gaze at the stars.
AND..
my wish is ..
for the guy to strum the guitar and sing a sweet song for me..
that's all. i dont need anything much.
But it seems hard to find this kinda guy.

apart from that, i'm really tired.
ohbytheway, the exams are over (: we'll get back our papers tomorrow.
Yest after school went to luby's house. I was there for around 6 hours? haha. we played dress-up. Then went back home cause my brother asked me out (:

sometimes it gets really pathetic when the sitemeter can jump up to 30 views per hour but no one tags. blearghs.

my teacher send me an email and told me that there's n level fnn pratical this thurday at 8am like what the hell right and i've too cook again. blearghs.

to the dishes i`ll be making,
please be kind to me and please turn up delicious and appetizing and help me get an A1 for fnn coursework pretty please i blardy wanna include fnn as one of the top 3 subjects. PLEASEEEE!!!
ARGHHHHHHHHH

2007-05-19T08:38:00.000-07:00

(pictures below..long post ahead..)

i love today. today is love (:

hana & iqah came my house around 12 noon ! made for them pizzas and fried nuggets with fries. yummylicious ! we watched jangan pandang belakang at my room. IT WAS DOWNRIGHT SCARY I TELL YOU ! hahahaha. we were practically SHOUTING every second. hahaha. so yea they went home at 2pm but we took a video before that ! hahaha its was embarassing ! will upload it once iqah send it to me aite.

went out with iqah again at around four pm. we went parkway parade to play pool ! haha. but first we stopped at Mc cafe to give din a suprise ! haha. he was shocked. so yea booked a 8ft table and walked around Parkway parade first..waited for fairuz and his friend at mc cafe. i forgot his name.

BESTIES FOR 4 YEARS !

yea so played pool for 4 hours straight.

and guess what? while waiting for the boys to finish their game, me and iqah went to the refrigerator next to the counter. we wanted to buy a drink. so yea, we took a drink and went to the counter laah. and the conversion goes like this..

me : how much does it cost?
the girl at the counter : no, its okay. it's on that man. he paid for you *points at that man*
me and iqah : ahh? who?
the girl at the counter : *points again*
me and iqah : oh..ok.. *walk to the man and said thanks*
man : yea sure welcome. it's ok. go take more drink. its under me. you can take the ice cream too if you want. i`ll pay for it.
me and iqah : *SHOCKED*

we were seriously stunned. and then that man smiled at us and we said thanks. haha. FREE DRINK MAN!

oh yea, guess what drink we took?
ANYTHING.
yes, the drink is called "ANYTHING"
reallyyyyyyyy.

hahaha. oh btw today i suck at pool ! seriously. i dont know whats up with me but the ball dosent go in eveytime i have a great chance siaaa. its really frustrating. and whats more, the stick hit my toe ! painful siaaaa.

so yea, since that guy said everything is under him, iqah went to take a drink again. HAHAHAHAHA.
and then he came to our table..

the man : next time, dont take one drink ok?
me and iqah : *look at each other*
the man : next time take two drinks ok? and ice creams too. dont worry, i'll pay for it *smiles*

WAHLIAOWEYYY.
if only every guy is like him, very kind and generous and polite and all, the world would be a much better place i tell you.
and futhurmore, he dosent look like those kind who's very chee-ko-pek one. he looks very civilised and..and..cute. hahahaha.
he's like 2 years older than us i guess. tall and handsome. gawd. and with his superb personality, he's really a great package i tell you. if only..if only all guys are like him..hmm..

and guess what?
he even payed for the pool la sia.
and its cost like what..20 bucks plus..
gawd.
with the drinks and all.
me and iqah felt like as if we're paris hilton and nicole richie la sia. hahahaha

walked around parkway parade after that..we bought SCOOPS ! my all time favourite ice cream ! :D :D

sat outside parkway parade next to the water water thingy. yeahh. and iqah dared me to stand in the middle for 5 seconds. my leggings and wedges got wet ! LOL.

i love everyone around me :D oh my mum bought for me a top ! yayy. i love itttttt ! ! and im supposed to go out with my mumsie tomorrow to expo..there's a metro sale but ..ive yet to study for my maths paper 2 la siaa. so yea..but we're going shopping together next month ! i wanna buy wedges ! and tops ! and more leggings ! more skirts ! and bugis' earings ! omg omg this is heaven !!

ahhh, i wanna play bowling :(

my june holidays are all planned now..
4 chalets to attend..
sentosa with the babes..
more pool..
more shopping..
and the most suckiest thing ever.., SCHOOL ON THE 1ST, 3RD AND 4TH WEEK OF HOLIDAYS ! and its from mon - fri !!
why the chee-fook do they even call it JUNE HOLIDAYS!
bummer!

2007-05-18T09:13:00.000-07:00

i'm really trying to keep my eyes open as i type. im seriously worned out. tired. exhausted!

today's paper was maths (paper 1) , geography and then we had NE test. last test on monday; maths paper 2. screw it hard please. school ends at around 1pm so went straight home. Got changed and met lubna at around 2.45pm. Head to orchard with her. Ate Fried Mars Bars. YUMMEH. So yea, as USUAL, went to..BUGIS next. HEAVEN, I TELL YOU :D saw that chi guy at that bag shop again. teeheehee. Surveyed dresses but they dont seem really nyce :( sadness. walked around and we ate at Teenage cafe. AGAIN. i had their brownies. AGAIN. hahahahahhahaha. It's really very addictive (: around 7pm, head to paya lebar. Bought a top. blabla and reached home around 9pm

pictures..

ciao.

2007-05-17T02:45:00.000-07:00

i.am.so.gonna.fail.my.mid-year.
for real.

apart from that, life's prettaye good.
i'm so glad to have my friends and family around to entertain me when my stress level is abnormally high. hehs. wonderfullness.

last tuesday there's no paper so that means no school (yay!). Aida asked me out to study together at national lib where we "unintendedly" spent most of our time looking at eye candies and walking around bugis. and i bought a top at bugis street :D and omg i saw that cute chi guy at that bag shop againnn. haha i think he remembers me cause he gave me that i-think-i-saw-you-before look. YAYYY HE REMEMBERS ME. ok, luby must be jealous. MUAHAHAHAHAHA.

oh we ate at TEENAGE CAFE AGAIN! i'm hooked to that place. i wanna get a member card. yerp! Aida had their brownies and i had their spaghetti. yumm.

Head to national library next.
I think i have a thing for guys who goes to the library. i find 'em cute. Like you know, its rare to see guys mugging with their heart and mind on it. writting notes and all. omg im really getting obsessive about the opposite sex. LOL

bestfriends are always there for you.
I LOVE YOU AIDA.

And they always will.

And, i promise you guys i`ll be there for you people when you need me okaye?
You've guys helped me alot for the past month. You guys help me to realise the beauty of life without having a man. And now, look at me. I'm more than happy. I'm happier now than i am before.
See, the grass is always greener on the other side (:

YOU SHOULD TRY THIS MUFFIN. damn nice! It's at bugis. the shop's near Old chang kee there.

Wednesday (yesterday) had FNN paper. Was managable. I was munching on chocolate mint from the start of the paper till the end to keep me awake. I was tired and hungry you see. And i bought a whole box. LOL. My classmates look at me muching those awfully delicious sin with green eyes. hahahaha but too bad, i finished it all up before the paper ends. Oh btw thanks marshmallow for sending me up to class. thats sweet of you (:

Today (thursday) had BIOL-ogy and chemistry paper. Both was a killer. I was stunt even before turning to the second page. I suck. But thank god i actually know how to answer some. Phewwww. It'll be a miracle if i pass both papers but i doubt so. Fat hope luhhh. I'm stupid you see. But to think of it, i'm not really THAT stupid. I'm just mentally challenged. At least i know when to lie and when not to. pst. [i'm still pissed about that incident]
So yea. Paper ends at 1.15pm. Marshmallow's paper ends at 11.15am.. But he waited 2 hours for me justttt to send me home. hahaha. sweetness :D

Luby came my house. We wanted to go Parkway parade but it rained as soon as we stepped to my house so, plan cancelled. She stayed my house and we chilled at my room. Watched mean girls and i slept halfway. The weather's chilling mannn. I switched on my air-con too and its super cold. Didnt study like we planned too..It was not the perfect condition to study anyway. hahaha.

Tomorrow's geography and maths paper 1. monday's maths paper 2. tuesday no school. EXAMS GONNA END SOON. JiaJian/abang JJ/bro jian, LETS PLAY POOL ONE DAY !! hahahahaha. luby lets go bugis ! aida, let's have teenage cafe's brownies. Alvin lets have Fried Mars Bars. Iqah and hana, let's go KTV. Mum and dad, let's go shopping again (MUAHAHAHA). People, i miss taking neoprints. Anyone wanna take neoprints with mee? hahahaha

2007-05-14T12:51:00.000-07:00

i am beautiful. and i'm a star. that makes me a beautiful star (:
well, it's proven.
look : http://www.weddingvendors.com/baby-names/search/?keywords=farah+suhaila&gender=&origin=&sw=&ew=

its the meaning of my name.
farah = beautiful
suhaila = star.
HAHAHAHAHA

pictures (:

yesterday's. mum's day at lau pa sat. i love my mum. yea we look alike dont we?

oh yea i had fnn practical last friday.
i baked brownie (again), fruit dip (strawberry dip with chocolate) and pizzas. oh guess what? i didnt even get to taste my pizza. sad right? i served it in a plate after baking it ah. i place it at the table and i went to wash my dishes. and when i turned back, ITS FINISHED. babbbiii. hahahaha. but its ok (: they said it was nice and tempting. oh its ok i understand. its superbly delicious aint it? *coughs*

pita bread with tomato sause. i havent add in the other ingredients yet.
haha

chocolate.

at luby's. I STUDIED OK.

oh yea..pictures in the cab..

oh yea had social studies paper today.
was not a killer but yea. wrote alot. blearghs. had 1 hr 30 minutes for the paper. i spent 1 hr 15 minutes on the SEQ questions. I'm quite confident i`ll get high marks for SEQ. i hope i'll get full marks for it. yea its upon a 25. i`ll keep my fingers cross though. so yea, i was left with 15 minutes to do my SBQ ques. yea i know. bad time management. but hey i managed to do 2 questions ok. a 5 mark question and a 6 mark question. didnt do the other 2 question cause i think..i can pass my paper although i missed out that question. HAHAHA CONFIDENT GILER SIA FARAHHH. but i dont think i`ll get high marks but i`ll be contented with just a pass. yeaaaa.

after sch went bubble tea with luby and narrrrrysal.
i laughed ALOT! my spinal cord was really painful ! i laughed so hard that i hafta bend down a lil so my back wont hurt. yea i had so much fun !!

OK TOODLES.

and btw luby wanna be a part of my entry. HAHAHAHA

oh and you liar guy, go and die ah you. old fag! you lie lie lie you think funfair is it? babat kau ah. merepek meraban. bobal world nak mampos. you think you lie lie you can get money is it? fuck ah cibai. dont contact me ever again ah you. fuck fuck fuck.
waste my ppaid only. fuck ah. every word you say all lies ah. i swear karma gonna hit you real hard. my family hates you already. go die ah you. you want to get sympathy ah? FUCK AH THIS IS NOT THE RIGHT WAY BODOH ! you dont hafta fucking make up stories say you at hospt all that right? cibai ah. padehal kat rumah. you say you using oxygen tank..oxygen tank otak lu ah. dont make me shove the oxygen tank at your asshole bodo! i swear you go fart all your life ah. fuck ah. LIAR AH YOU. spoil my mood only. knnccb! you desperado fag ! DAH PAISEY BUAT HAL PAISEY AH. TK YAH NK STEP BODO BODO KAN!

2007-05-13T17:24:00.000-07:00

happy mother's day ibu (:
i love you. i do. i really really do.
you're the only one who understands me. apart from my friends that is.
you're the only one who will give me a massage although you'r busy.
you're the only one who will feed me with rice using your hands.
you're the only one who will go out shopping with me and never complain that im fickle minded
you're the only one who will compliment me when i look good
you're the only one who will tell me its alright when everything crumble

ive the best mum in the whole wide world.
i talk to my mum about my boyfriends.
i talk to my mum about flings, boys, girls.
i gossip with my mum about everything in this world
i love it how i would rest on her bed and just ramble about everything and she will just sit there beside me and listen to me although i talk for an hour about the same thing.
i love it how she would give me a peck on the cheek and tell me to take good care of myself before i go to school.
i love it how she would always fill the refrigerator with loads of chocolates everytime it finishes.
bottom line is, i love her.

so yea, going out later to lau pa sat with the fam + sis in laws + nephews to celebrate mum's day around 7pm+. truth is, ive nvr been to lau pa sat before. it sounds so thailand-ish, aint it? haha.

wanted to update about yesterday tomorrow together with pictures but ive asoblutely nothing to do now thus it leads to boredom so yea, plain words today. pictures next time oke? (:

so yesterday's saturday.
went out with lubna the lulu the luby.
bio class was cancelled so yea.
[i like you, you bedok-guy-with-the-icelemontea-bottle. cute thang.]
went parkway parade with her and searched for mum's day prezzie. window shopped. yeaa. had lunch at KFC and went back Parkway. I bought for my mum a handbag at Isetan. Its prettayee (: Luby bought for her mum a handbag too.
Yea and we searched for narysal's birthday prezzie too. Cant reveal what we bought for him cause he reads my blog. [OH, hi narysal ! (: ]
i really spent alot that day :( im sad ah.
Head to luby's crib next. WE STUDIED. we did (:
yea and she thinks im in love with her dad. which is true..NOT. hahhahahahahahahahahaha.
i know you love manaf too, luby. hahahahaha

So yea around 8pm, we got ready [in 20 minutes. hell yea] and went Aisyah's chalet at downtown east at Pasir ris. yeaa went there by cab. Loads of food. Cute chi guy at the opp chalet. Luby's elated. This time, for real.

Ya so made our way home around 9.30pm by cab. The taxi driver's very friendly but he turned out freaky in the end.
Luby and myself was taking pictures in the cab and then he asked us if we're sisters [we heard that for a couple of times] and we said hell no. Luby claimed that she's prettier. [its ok, i can be the prettiest then. IM JOKING ONLY LA!! hahahahaha] and then he said he wanna look at us. and i was like, ok, we're behind you. then he said he wants us to take our own picture using his handphone. and i was like, what the fuck is wrong with this old fag. hahahahaha. obviously i didnt say it old loud !

and so, today happens to be the 13th. does it rings any bell? hmph..

2007-05-09T23:38:00.000-07:00

i told myself not to blog too much. why? i don't know. but howells, i'm blogging now.
the irony =.=''

Didnt attend school today. Belive it or not, i studied for 10 straight hours at home. 10.30 am till 8.30pm. It was downright worthwhile. And obviously i had breaks in between. I`ll go bonkers if i dont. Anyhoos i bought a pen ink refill just yesterday and it's finished now. How pathetic. So yea, go imagine how much stuffs i wrote just now. My hands felt so numb after writting (insertnumberhere) pages of Biology notes. Blearghhsss.

I'm addicted to class95fm. They rock and they're downright hilarious ! haha. I was tuning to it from the minute i start mugging till the end. It keeps me accompany ! Yay i have a new bestfriend (:

Am not sure wheater to attend school tomorrow. Should I?
oh, look at the time now. Gonna turn in soon ! toodles biatches (:

2007-05-08T06:40:00.000-07:00

hey! (:
There's a tagboard now. I put it there especially for xuanxuan ok ! she requested for it. hahahaha. Oh yea, i'm sure there's gonna be loads of hate tags. Wellwell..lets see what they have in store for me yea..? more criticism? urgh!, tell me something new please.
Soooo yea (: Jing yuan is so kind. haha. He burned for me Mr bean the movie, Wild hogs and 200pound beauty ! Thanks you're the bessssttt ! (: haha. But i dont have the time to watch it now thou`. Gonna watch it immediately after the exams are over. yeaaap !
Gawd im so stressed up with everything larhs :( studied chemistry for 5 straight hours just now. Covered the whole book already. THANK GOD! AT LAST :D finally i can memorise most of the the fomulas larhsssss. a load off my shoulders man.
many people asked me out this weekend. but i dont think im going out though. gonna study like one maniac. seriously. but i got the feeling that im not going to do well for mid-year thou. sigh.
not going to school tomorrow :) gonna study at home the whole day. blearghs. sucky but..beneficial.
and i so hate myself. was sms-ing with loads of people last night till i missed watching ANTM. kill me someone. ciao!

your momma is so ugly that when she entered an ugly contest, the judges said " no professionals please"

2007-05-06T19:30:00.001-07:00

hey yaw (:
i'm at school nowww. yea it's fnn lesson sooo..Mrs Seah abandoned us and asked us to use the comp at library to finish up with our coursework. Ive already finish them long time agooo so yea..ive loads of time to waste. Luby's so freaking irritating cause she's looking at what im typing now and i feel like smacking her face...haha. ok, lubna please stop looking at my keyboard and screen. i feel so awkward. HAHA. alright and now ashraf's behind me =.=''
recess is in 20 minutes time. i so cant wait. i'm dead hungry. bleaghsss..
omgOMGomg!!
that cute guy just entered the libraryyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hahahaha he's at the back now..oh btw, he's not a student nor he's a teacher. i dont know what is he. i think he's those AVA staffs. oh wait, he IS those AVA staffss..
alright boooo =( he just leave the library.
luby, aida and myself was damn elated when he entered. hahahaha. omg hott stuff la.
so lets see..narysal's looking at bapoks profile at friendster..luby's engrossed in her coursework..aida's eyes are stucked at ronaldo's pictures
OMG HE ENTERED AGAINN!!!!! (:
YAYYYY.
alright, so lets continue..
ashraf's walking around here and there..and i'm...blogging. HAHAHA
omg that cute stuff is at the back. i feel like turning behind and just look at him but heyyyy..im not THAT crazy you know..oh wait, i just did turn back =P hahahahahhaa
and i seriously cant belive i just blogged about him. blearghs...but he's not chi though..he looks arab. hot stuff.
alright toodles my biatches (:

2007-05-05T06:55:00.000-07:00

heyyyyyyyyy (:
[oh yeah my blog song has no connection with anyone so dont think otherwise.]

deleted the previous post cause i think she's not worth the space. HAHAHAHA. and faisal told me i deserve more respect..and he told me not to care what she said about me cause i'm not what she said. i'm farah suhaila. WHEEEE. howells for me she's just a little pea. tau buat , tak tau nak tanggung. kentalan jubo. muke dah la macam durian busok..perangai macam sialan. told faisal that and he laughed. hahaha

alright. yesterday was so worthwhile, fun and beneficial, yaw.
had biology extra class from 1pm-2.30pm. Miss Shahizah bought for us mcdonald's mealsssss. yummehh. i ate alot of nuggets ! hahaha
then narysal asked me if i wanna join him to East coast park together with azri and ayuu..so yeap, i followed lorr. haha. rushed home and changed ! narysal, ayu and aida waited for like 40 minutes for me under my block ! aint that sweeeeeeet ? yea so went bedok inter and met azri there. aida went home =(

changed again at east coast and yayyyyyy...rented bicycle ! ayu & narysal took the double bicycle.. azri & myself took the single. it was wayyyyyyyyyyyyyy fun. serious! hahahaha. so many hot chi guys with hot bods! whooops! hahahahaha

azri and myself.

we were singing all the way. okay, maybe not all the way but we sang. hahaha. we did try the wild hogs stunt. LOL. we cycled from one end to another. and when i say we did, WE DID. it's god damn far laaahh. we took 2 hours. went places i never went before. it was heaven.

i cycled as fast as i could..trying to run away from my problems and leave my pasts behind..i took deep breaths and smiled while cycling..the feeling is downright great. serious (:
i felt much more better after that. MUCH MORE BETTTER ! WHEEEEEE..the sound of the crashing waves is much more better than any melody (:

returned the bike at 6.30pm..then all of us sat at the water breaker..
i made friends with a fisherman ! hahaha

"farah the mask rider." says narysal

screw my face real hard please. hahahahahahha
oh yea, i know the scars on my wrist is damn obvious at this pic..
but who cares..
yes, i scar myself..i slit my wrist..
you got a problem with that, nameless mdis student?
i prefer having my wrist slit rather than having a name that sounds like durian. but takpe uh..name tu sajak ngan kau..muke dah la mcm durian. i hate durians. esplande excluded eh.

this is real candid
i didnt know that narysal took this pic until he showed it to me
oh ya and i know, i can see my scars at my wrist too. i know. its ugly. shut up. but not as ugly as her obviously. HAHAHA

so yea, changed clothes again..was 7.30pm by then..strolled along the beach soon after..we walked reaaaaaaallly slow. hahaha. narysal and i did the chicky dance while walking ! can you imagine that? it was downright lame ! hahahahaha. we sang and all..made funny noises..those bunch really made my day ! i love you guys !

ate at the coffeshop beside parkway parade..narysal was funneh ! haha. he combined all the leftovers in a bowl. it looks disgusting larhs !
hahahaha.
so yea, took the bus home..wheee (:

READ BETWEEN THE LINE, YOU MDIS STUDENT. hahahahahahahahahah
oh btw the way, thats my other jumper that my dad bought for me. prettaye kannn. but i still prefer the other one thou. haha

all of us were damn crazy laaa..narysal made lame jokes. REALLY LAME JOKES.
hahaha
why are cars called cars??
cause they're not called vans!
how lame could it get?
LOL
oh yea, narysal send me home. aint that sweet? :D

anyhoos sometimes i wonder why people just LOVE to intrude my life. people such as that durian face. they only know how to say bad stuffs about people but dont have the courage to admit. this is what you call sore losers. they're actually very stupid people. they think they big fuck lor. they think they older than us they can do anything they like. i mean, whats the point of bragging and saying that youre older and matured than me when the actual fact is, you're just a puny small pea. truth is, i see you as a dirt. im not tryng to be mean but im just stating out my point of view. you totally mess around with the wrong girl, you durian face. if you dare say such stuffs about me again, say it infront of my face. but i dont even think you`ll do that. know why? cause when i confronted to you on the phone, you sounded so small and scared and you were like "i never do anything wrong, i never do anything wrong" HAHAHAHAHA. you sound so kentalan sial. you dont even want to admit what you did. BLEARGHS. OH YEA, one more thing. STOP ACCUSING PEOPLE BLINDY AH BODOH. bleargh! and kalau nak bobal buruk pasal org , bobal depan2 ah sia..kecot pe nk kene hide blakang screen. aku anytime leh turon. mau jumpe pe?

okok im sooo gonna study later on. i swear.
i'm scared lahhhh
mid year tau ! geez.

"your momma is so fat that she got stuck at grand canyon" says azri.